Amirah Aqilah

endless.

2012-01-22T09:13:00.000-08:00

~~I've tried hard. But i just can't. I'm running out of tears. Living inside the fears. Yet there's no answers.~~

Sorry & Maaf.

2011-07-10T22:54:00.000-07:00

Hi there. Salam to everyone. Its been quite a long time since my blog being silent. So for this entry it would just be a short one. Lately, i received a lot of invitation here and there. A million thanks for all those awesome invitation and sorry that i coudnt attend any of the invitation. Kinda sad, but this urgent case really need my 24hours to settle it down. Hope to see yu guys soon for the next catch up.

And to my dearest friend, aisa and zye , i'm really sorry that we always had to postponed our meet up. Soryy aisa. Sorry zye. Aku janji once case '2 alam' nie dah settle aku pi jumpa hangpa naa. Sorry sgt sgt. Nak main Ipad pun tak sempat :p Acane? hehe. hurm. This thing is far beyond my power and what i need to do is just pray and forgive the person who did this. semoga Allah bukakkan pintu hati dia and tunjukkan dia jalan yang benar. Amin.

So, kepada zye, aisa dan juga kwn2 yang lain, i'll catch up with you very very soon kay. :) Thanks for everything and sorry if anything.

see ya ! wasalam.

SAYA RINDU AWAK. :'(

2011-06-03T10:02:00.000-07:00

I MISS YOU.

:'(

NAK PERGI NAK PERGI :'(

2011-06-02T10:32:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG, i really wanna go for this one. Plus, this sunday there's gonna be garage sale at USJ5. Please please please. Really wanna go for this one. :( Kinda sad cz will not be in subang on that day :( Nak sangat pergi. Huk. Huk. Huk. Oh miracle, please happen baby! I've been invited for so many occation on that day.Plus its gonna be my mom's birthday. huhu. Thanks for the invitations guys. Thanks to Iqeat(zye's boyfie) for the special gig event. Would love to come to but will see how kay. :) Oh garage sale, can u please wait for me till i get back here? Hey empire, can u organize this cool event again, maybe next week?

garage sale. :)

*hoiiiiii, ko ingat ko sape? sodap je suruh orang buat tu buat nie. arrange sana arrange sini. apa? hang pikiaq hang superstar kah?*

AKU YANG TAK PERNAH KAU ANGGAP.

2011-05-30T06:17:00.000-07:00

Ku biarkan ia berlalu,
Walau sendiri tidak mahu,
Namun itu pintamu,
Mungkin itu yang kau tunggu,

Tiada ku khabarkan,
Pada nya dunia,
Mengapa dan bagaimana,
Siapa dan apa,
Tiada ku ceritakan,
Cuma pahitnya senyuman,
Melakari keindahan,

Terbang lah si rama-rama,
Melihat sebelahnya dunia,
Mungkinkah kau kan gembira?
Mungkinkah kau bersamanya?
Mungkinkah kau kan tertawa?
Kau punya jawapannya,

Terbanglah si rama-rama,
Membina semula rasa,
Menulis semula hikayat jiwa,
Melukis kembali,
Mewarnai,

Andai kau kembali,
Ketahuilah ku masih disini,
Menanti,
Dan terus menanti,
Kerna itulah yang pasti,
Ceritanya disini,
Kekal terpatri,
Sungguh aku disini.

LOVE

2011-05-20T09:13:00.000-07:00

I NEVER STOP LOVING. I JUST STOP SHOWING.

L-U-C-K-Y CURVE.

2011-05-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

cupcakes <3

meet them :)

fiqa :')

Hello guys :) yesterday went to curve with my cupcakes <3. hehe. we had a lot of fun i must say and we enjoy every second after a long time we havent seen each other. Okay, semasa hendak membeli ticket pirates, as we agreed to watch the muvi, suddenly, it turn out to be we got a free tickets from tiz zaqiyah :) for her muvi, Nur Kasih the movie. :) okay memandangkan out ticket is at 3pm, so we decided to received the free tickets and watch Nur Kasih at 12pm. hehe. so i must say we had a lucky day on that day. Thanks to tiz zaqiyah and her fan clubs. not to forget both the movie is awesome! :) thanks to my cupcakes also. and not to forget, thanks a lot to faris and fiqa sebab sudi setuju untuk naik cab pergi sana. i decided not to use my car kalau nak pergi berjalan-jalan. hehe. saja nak membiasakan diri. I'll be needing to make use of it for the benefit during my 4th sem. :) lovessss, thanks so much! :D

p/s: Thanks to faris for the marvellous dinner at his house :') shedap shangat! :')

L-O-C-K

2011-05-17T09:11:00.000-07:00

"I'll just hope you know how i felt. I just hope you know how am i. There's nothing i can do than just praying for you. I see you're smiling. I see you're laughing. And my heart terrified. Cause all i want is you to be fine."

ICE CREAM AND YOUR PERSONALITY

2011-05-16T23:51:00.000-07:00

Hello Hello Hello!! :) Do you know that by having your favourite ice cream flavour, you could determined your personality type? :) Well, i knew this quite a long time ago and just wanna share with you guys.

*haa, bagi sapa yang kurang faham. sebenarnya, di sebalik aiskrim kesukaan anda, anda juga bole mengetahui tentang personaliti yang tersirat di sebaliknya.*

*errr, budget dowh kau!*

*laah?! ko bagus sangat ke?*

*err, guys guys, sabaq naa. Toksah la nak dok bergaduh laa nie. Sat lagi kita pi luaq naa. Haa, had tu nanti hangpa berdua gaduh la naa.*

So guys, here are some of the infos :)

Vanilla

If you like the simpleness of vanilla, you are an impulsive, risk taker. You enjoy close family relationships, set high goals, and have high expectations for yourself.

Banana Cream Pie

If you bask in bananas, you are very easy-going. You are well-adjusted, generous, empathetic, and honest.

Strawberries n Cream

If you are a strawberry lover, you are shy yet emotionally robust. You can be skeptical, detail-oriented, opinionated, introverted, and self-critical.

Mint Chocolate Chip

If you indulge in Mint Chocolate Chip, you tend to be ambitious and confident yet skeptical about life. You prepare for the future, needing a plan to feel secure. While your stubbornness is a business asset, it can add challenges to your relationships. Even so, your loyalty. honesty and, dependability create lasting friendships and close family ties.

Rocky Road

If you opt for the rich, indulgent taste of Rocky Road, you have a balanced mixture of charm and practicality. While in social situations you are outgoing and engaging, in the business world you are more aggressive and goal-oriented. You appreciate the finer things in life and enjoy being catered to. You respond best to encouragement rather than criticism and can be very sensitive anout minor things.

Chocolate Chip

As a Chocolate Chip lover you are competitive and accomplished, no victory is sweet without a little hard work. Although you are generous with your money, you are competent and ambitious in love and work. You never take blessings for granted. You are a shining star in social situations with your captivating personality.

Butter Pecan

If you fave flave is Butter Pecan, you would be seen as the perfect worker. You are devoted, conscientious, respectful, and conservative. You hold high standards for right and wrong and show integrity in all of your actions. You are extremely sensitive to others' feelings. You don't wear your heart on your sleeve. It can take encouragement from close friends and family to get you to share your deepest thoughts.

Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough

If you love your mix of cookie dough and ice cream you are a natural leader and you always aim high. You are a total go-getter and will not give up until you have achieved all that you wanted to do.

Chocolate

If you can't live without classic chocolate, you are a total flirt. You love attention! At heart, though, you are a hopeless romantic waiting for your prince/princess to come and sweep you away.

Coffee

As a coffee lover, you are lively, dramatic, and flirtatious. You thrive on the passion of the moment. Because you throw yourself into all you do, you tend to be over-committed and start new projects before you finish old ones. You get bored with dull relationships and thrive on new exciting adventures.

NOTICED

2011-05-16T23:07:00.001-07:00

I gave you everything a girl could give you it took me by surprise.
All the times you slipped by my fingers letting you just tell me lies.
Should have ended it a whole lot sooner but sometimes u cant see.
A broken heart is hanging from the ceiling right between you and me.

YUNA-MEMO. :D

2011-05-16T09:09:00.000-07:00

A great one. :)

ANDA & DARAH.

2011-05-16T01:56:00.000-07:00

Hey guys. Do you know that your type of blood tells a lot about your personality. Okay dulu semasa membuat experiment test darah. we isolate different types of blood and determined and observed the personality that a blood could define. So here are some of the definitions about them. :)

Type A
• Presence of mind, serious, patient, calm & cool;
• Coherent character, can be relied on & trusted, but stuborn;
• Plan everything out beforehand, and carry out tasks with seriousness and consistency;
• Try to be fair and find the ideal outcome to any situation;
• Tend to keep themselves separate from others, especially those who don't share their opinions;
• Tend to try and keep their emotions and thoughts hidden from others, and share them only when comfortable.
Type-A people are farmers. They are shy, introverted perfectionists. They are considerate to others and cannot tell a lie easily. They are loyal to friends and coworkers. They can be secretive, though, and don't often share their feelings. They don't hold their liquor well.

Type B
• Tend to be exceedingly curious about everything;
• Are easily vexed and grow exasperated if things don't go the way they want them to go;
• Usually have a strong drive to be the best at whatever they set their mind to doing; however, they also tend to neglect other tasks for the sake of whatever they are focusing on;
• Have a hard time multi-tasking;
• Tend to be loners, and keep themselves isolated from others;
Type-B people are hunters. They have independent spirits with strong personalities. While they don't care what others think of them, they are extremely passionate about the things they hold dear. They can be shallow, lazy, and quite impatient.

Type AB
• Usually gentle and emotionally sensative;
• Are very empathetic and careful when dealing with other people, taking care to consider the other point of view;
• Easily become lost in thought;
• Are sometimes looked at as having 2 personalities, because they tend to keep their true selves hidden from strangers;
• They have many friends, but also require time alone
Type-AB people are humanists. They are an unpredictable, distant lot, but tend to use their heads over their hearts. They are good with money. They seek accord and so work well as mediators; however, they can be viewed as two-faced.

Type O
• Are usually the "cheerleader" of the group;
•Tend to be more followers than leaders, accepting whatever the plan is and going alone with it without protest;
• Very generous and kindhearted;
• Generally well-liked by most people;
• Very flexible, and adapt easily to change;
• They are easily influenced by others, as well as perceived authorities, such as television personalities;
•Generally trustworthy, but can sometimes make mistakes due to lapses of focus.
Type-O people are warriors. They are outgoing, expressive, and passionate. They are highly motivated and natural leaders. Blessed with a strong physical presence, they aren't afraid to gamble because they are so convinced they will win. They are natural athletes. They tend to be obsessive in their quest for success, and this can make them boring to others.

SO, WHAT ARE YOURS? :D MINE IS A :) HEHE.

MARUAH BB ??

2011-05-15T07:28:00.000-07:00

OMG! OMG! Okay okay, dengar sini semua orang kampung! Ada berita tergempar di sini. Hehe. Takde la. Just nak share something dengan korang about so called 'Blackberry' yang dahulu pernah di agung agung kan oleh semua orang. Yang pernah menjadi rebutan setiap mata yang memandang, *errr, kau dah mcm cerita gadis kena mengorat* Haha. Takde. Just pelik kenapa ramai dah tak gunakan BB dah? Ramai kawan saya yang dah stop menggunakan BB and ramai di antara mereka yang bercadang untuk menggunakan selain daripada BB? Adakah BB bersalah? And plus ada di antara kawan saya yang menawarkan BB dengan harga RM500. Terkejut juga. Apa dah jadi dengan BB? hehe. Mungkin ramai yang dah sedar tentang kepentingan Ipad? *takde kena mengena la der. Mcm mana depa nak call orang? * Ahaha. Apa pun, saya yakin there's are pros' and conts' for everything. yang penting ada alat telekomunikasi. hehe. *sorry. guna bahasa purba sikit* hee.

THE RETURN

2011-05-14T10:57:00.000-07:00

Hello Malaysia. *wah! gaya mcm orang baru balik over the sea haa!* haha. Just wanna thanks to everyone yang menjayakan aktiviti penghantaran saya ke semenanjung malaysia a.k.a SUBANG JAYA!! hehe. takde la. cerita psl kereta sewa saya, ada ke patut dia nak charge lebih then bila saya tanak bayar dia nak buat report polis. and for ur information, i dengan dato' polis tu dah mcm sugar daddy taw. hehe. takpe la. leave it. yang penting saya dah balik. :) and my journey was accompanied by aisa :) duduk sebelah sebelah lagi. :) and thanks aisa sebab hantar saya balik ruma :) enjoyed everything :D mwacks. :')

TRUE LOVIEEEEEE

2011-05-14T09:22:00.000-07:00

TRUE LOVE NEVER HAS HAPPY ENDING. TRUE LOVE NEVER ENDS. REGARDLESS OF WHETHER THEY'RE TOGETHER OR NOT, REGARDLESS OF WHAT THE FEELINGS ARE, WHAT THE EMOTIONAL FEELS AND WHAT THE ACTION DOES. ALL IT KNOWS THAT ONE WOULD REMAIN LOVE THE ONE TILL THE END. AND ONE WOULD SMILE SEEING THEIR ONE BEING HAPPY.

SPOT THE MAGIC WORDS! :)

2011-05-10T05:06:00.000-07:00

Hi !! hehe :D okay tajuk kita pada hari ini murid2 ialah ' spot the magic words '. *cikgu bahasa inggeris sedang mengajar* lol* Okay, whats up with the title? nowadays kita tengok banyak yang salah guna bahasa kan? walaupun dah bertukar perdana menteri and asyik2 menggalakkan ' budi bahasa budaya kita ' tapi tak celui jugak depa suma tuu. Had nie, kita semua dok cakap dgn menggunakan bahasa yang salah. For example..

SET 1
CIKGU: Okay class. please take out your tutorial book now.
MURID A: cikgu, toilet!

*haa, kan dah salah tuu. cuba la elok sikit ckp, "cikgu, may i go to toilet". kan sedap sikit dengar tuu.*

SET 2:
AYAH: Man, jom teman ayah kejap pegi kedai. tolong ayah sekejap.
MAN: *Dlm kereta*bunyi radio* ayah, kuatkan radio!

*haa, ada ke patut ckp mcm tu. kalau ye pun suka dekat lagu tu, ckp la elok sikit. cuba ckp mcm nie " ayah, kuatkan radio sikit bole?" kan tenang hati ayah mendengar tu?

cuba tengok dialog cikgu dengan ayah tu, elok je diaorang ckp. kita nie dah didik dah. tapi still hilang amalannya. So guys, spot the magic words!! :) lepas nie, sama2 improve gaya bahasa kay :D

KETAHUAN

2011-05-08T09:24:00.000-07:00

Ya aku tahu. Hari ini adalah Hari Ibu. Atau dalam bahasa modennya "Mother's day". Aku tengok banyak yang pi sambut. Penuh Shopping complex tu. Penuh Secret recipe. Berpusu-pusu orang dok pi beratur kat Big Apple tu haa. Semua dok beli hadiah sana sini untuk Mak, Ibu,Mama,Umi tercinta. Okay, selama ak aku hidup 20 tahun, bukan nak cakap apa, tapi kdg2 rasa sebak, sedih dan sedih. Sebab ak tak pernah nak rasa mcm mana sambutan tu. Ada yang sambut ramai2 bersama aunty2 yang bergelar ibu. Ada yang sambut sesam ahli keluarga. Tapi the point is 'menyambut'. Tapi, but, aku?? aku tak pernah nak rasa. Entah tak tau kenapa. Maybe sebab masing2 tak pernah hirau. Atau didikan semasa kecil yang menjadi punca? Aku tak pernah tahu kenapa. Bukannya nak ckp 'OMG. kau orang tak ada family bond ke?' tak, tak, bukan aku takde family bond. kitaorang ada je. pernah je sama2 pegi holiday sume tapi mungkin bahagian nie adalah kekurangan yang ada dalam keluarga aku. mungkin. Mungkin bab2 menyambut sana sini, tak la begitu meriah dengan apa yang korang alami. Bila dengar cerita org, atau tgk dengan ,ata sendiri, sebak terasa tapi senyum ku tak pernah lekang. Bukan aku nak dok mengadu atau complain just nak share something with you guys. Mungkin bole di jadikan pengajaran & pembelajaran. Aku sedar erti seorang ibu kerana Dia. Ya, kau la yang sedar kan aku selama nie. And i thanked you for that my dear :) Cuma bagi you all semua yang menyambut, hargai la detik bersama ibu anda semua. * dah mcm berceramah dah haa* a mom is the best person ever in ur life. she will always be the one. i'm not that close to my mom but still i love her. a lot.

p/s: ibu, selamat hari ibu. :) i love u a lot. thanks for everything u've done for me and for all the understanding ibu. u're the best. and i;m sorry for all the wrongdoings i've done ibu. qila nak ibu tau, qila sentiasa sayangkan ibu eventhough kita tak pernah nak share everything like others did.

JIWA ZERO

2011-05-08T07:38:00.000-07:00

Hai ketua segala rasa,
Mengapakah engkau menderita,
Bersyukur kah engkau padaNya?
Usah kau tangisi amarahnya.
Kelak kau disambar hina.
Hai penghulu segala bicara,
Mengapakah engkau merana?
Tidak mahu kah engkau tertawa?
Usah kau mengejarnya.
Leka dan alpa hujung pangkalnya.
Ku tahu engkau mengerti,
Ku tahu engkau memahami,
Ku mahu engkau sedari,
Ku mahu kau merealisasi,
Masanya harus kau nanti,
Sabar dan tabah harus kau semadi,
Segala pengakuan pasti terbukti nanti,
Usah kau peduli,
Usah kau ragui,
Terus lah berdiri,
Amarah bukan jalannya,
Dendam tidak kan bisa,
Mengaut segalanya,
Meruntuh hiba dan sisa cerita,
Nyah kan kesabaranmu,
petikkan ketabahanmu,
Kau la segalanya,

SPARKLE

2011-05-07T23:15:00.000-07:00

You make me sick in a lot of ways
Make me smile always
I'm just really into
Having this chase
Kept my eyes open everytime
Falling for you is a crime
We let sparks go off
This time

Oh oh
I've been here before
Not long ago
With someone just as beautiful
Just as doubtful
I sure don't mind
Having you
This time

I see it in the steps you take
I hear it in the sounds you make
I'm just really into
Having a taste
Remind me how we got this far
Remind me how we fell apart
Oh I can't give you
That space in my heart

And then we fall asleep.

I'm the one
Whos always in the way
But you got me
Hoping for more more more
I'm here to stay
As though I am always there
As though I had never left

STUDY AND STYLE.

2011-05-05T10:11:00.000-07:00

Okay. semua orang pun ada gaya nya yang tersendiri untuk study. Hang study mcm mana? Ada setengah orang study guna radio. Ada setengah orang study diam2. Ada pulak yang study waktu malam2. Tapi selalu je akan di tanya.
1- Aik. apsal hang study lagu tu?
2- Laa. Awatnya dok buat lagu tu. Tak elok tau dak. Awat hang kalut sgt dok study lagu tu?
3- Hoi. Ek eleh poyo gila study diam2 ohh.
HUrm. Ish. Ish. Pasai apa hangpa nie suma dok kalut mengata cara org study. Biaq pi kat depa la lagu mana pun. Lain orang lain cara nya.
Haha. Apa cara sekali pun, study je. And smile.
You'll refresh the world :)
Saya suka study atas meja. Tapi laa nie bilik cek nie takda meja. Jadi kena la guna kan katil. Apa pun, saya enjoy dengan style study baru. haha. :D

p/s: Entri kali nie bergaya bahasakan loghat utara. :D

IT HAPPENED.

2011-05-05T05:36:00.000-07:00

First time saya jawab exam chemistry and i feel damn SUCKS! Hamagad, the questions are so damn freaky fucking hard! F&^%$#$@#$#@#?/)*&@%^? erghhhh! I can't believe it i answer all the questions withing 30 minutes. perrrggghhh. memang betul bantai tu. And i feel damn sad. sangat sedih. tak habis dengan tu, purse pulak hilang!! pppfffttt gila! ergh!bertambah la sedih. balik menangis sampai tertido. just teringat satu ayat je. " takpe. u did ur best dah kay." thanks a lot. thats the only thing that make me smile in a while.

FEEL WHAT I FEEL.

2011-05-04T06:17:00.000-07:00

Make u feel what i feel,
I'll be that song that u play over and over again,
See i don't mind,
I don't hide,
What i gotta do to prove it,
Walk a mile in my shoes,
Will u dare take a journey,
With me is where u wanna be,

CHEMYSTERY!!!

2011-05-04T05:58:00.000-07:00

Okay. i don't know why tapi rasa mcm this time ridiculous gila. cz taking biotechnologgy resource doesnt relate at all with chemistry tapi tak tau kenapa kena belajar lagi subjek tu. Huk. Nasib la bu bum ada :) mwah. hehe. tapi serious ohh. aduh. esok paper tapi satu pun tak cover lagi. still wondering whats the connection and plus belajar lagi biochemistry. tak cukup lagi ke saya nak couple dgn awak lagi chemistry?? Anyway, few more days to subang. tanak balik :(

p/s: to my beloved miss azaima. will miss you soon. jgn lupa saya! *haha. ko sape dowh sampai nak kena ingat bagai?* errr.

KOTAK FIKIRAN

2011-04-28T08:11:00.001-07:00

lidah ku kelu
badan ku kaku
fikiran ku buntu
memikirkan mu
risaukan dirimu
apakah kau di sana?
masih kah kau tegak berdiri?
fikirkah kau yang di sini?
yang masih cuba membela.
maruah dan segala.
kau hilang dalam di lema.
kau pergi sejuta hari.
membawa diri.
mungkin kah kau sedang tertawa?
mungkin kah kau sedang bergembira?
ingatkah kau pada si dia?
yang pernah menjadi teman semesra?
ingatkah kau pada diriku?
teman sejati tatkala kau kerunsingan hati?
kami dan kami dan kami.
kami tidak bersalah.
jika sekadar cuba menahan perit dan derita.
demi kau wahai sang juara.
ikhlas dan setia sebagai pinangan.
namun pandangan mu enteng bak murahan.
adil kah adil kah adil kah?
segala yang kau baktikan semula?
bukan harta yang di minta.
cukup jika penjelasan yang bernyata.
kemaafan telah ku beri.
dendam dan amarah tiada lah lagi.
kepulangan akan di nanti.
gelanggang bicara bakal ku buka.
sebagai saksi segala bahasa.

HI YOU

2011-04-28T08:11:00.000-07:00

ku cuma mengharap agar kau mengerti,
erti penantian yang sering menghantui,
tidak lah kuat tuk aku mengharungi,
segala persoalan yang kau tinggalkan.
ku perlukan jawapan.
segalanya ku sedar.
segala nya ku yakini.
kuasa tuhan yang memiliki.
seluruh kekuatan dan kelemahan.
Dia lah yang memberi.
kau, wahai engkau,
pulanglah.
hubungi kembali.
memberi jawapan kepada entri kosong ini.

UNTUK KAU.

2011-04-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

mungkin kah tajuk ku di atas kasar bahasanya?
mungkin juga ada yang terasa dek membacanya?
mungkin kah juga ku merasa kepahitan menulisnya?
coretan ku hanya la sekadar pesanan.
buat diriku dan rakan taulan.
cerita ku dahulukan.
kisahnya ku pendekkan.
kesimpulan aku hulurkan.
semoga kau tahu apa yang ku mahukan.
secebis hati kau guris.
segala cacian ku telan.
segala maki aku makan.
pedih, pahit aku rasakan.
tatkala kau menyimpan.
segala yang telah kau mulakan.
tapi kau tinggalkan pengakhiran.
tergantung dek awan.
berkibar tanpa tujuan.
kemanakah pengakhiran?
sentiasa aku nantikan.
berilah aku jawapan.
wahai insan yang pernah menjadi teman.
kau la sahabat handai.
kau la rakan yang bijak pandai.
kau la tempat ku curah segala duka dan lara.
segala gelak dan tawa.
namun harus diingatkan.
detik tawa detik manis
tidak lah berpanjangan.
mungkin kah ini ujian?
atau hukuman?
salah apakah?
dosa manakah?
aku serahkan pada tuhan.
akan tetapi kau,
ya, engkau.
engkau yang menyimpan segala lukisan.
lukisan di akhir kisah ini.
akan tetapi kau hilang.
membawa diri.
bukan ini yang di pinta.
seksa terasa amat lah tidak wajar.
kau ku cari.
hingga kaki mencecah duri.
namun bayangmu sentiasa dikaburi.
haruskah aku terus berdiri menanti?
sedarlah wahai kau insan yang lari,
kita pasti berjumpa suatu hari nanti,
di medan keadilan,
bukan semua yang ku pinta.
cuma secebis kata.
penjelasan dan kemaafan.
aku masih tegak berdiri.
di sini.
menanti.

SILENT SCREAM

2011-04-24T01:57:00.000-07:00

you know sometimes silent scream won't work out anything. Its okay to silence urself but when it comes to the heart matters, silent won't just be the solution. Running away from everything is coward. Its not that u're moving on ur life. Moving on ur life means that u're still observing ur past in a way that u're walking forward. by keeping urself silence and running away will just make u hurt ur surroundings and so do ur past. perhaps interrupting ur new life. i just hope u know. God bless.

CULUELESS

2011-04-19T22:33:00.000-07:00

Aha. okay saje je nak buat tajuk post mcm tu. Actually nak ckp 'clueless'. haha. Okay nothing much. Just tak faham kenapa kena berkasar bila kita bole buat cara elok? Errr. simple. i got the answer. for the mistake that happened, the WISE one will admit it and learn, the INSECURE will deny it, the FOOLISH will repeat it, and the GODLY forgive. :)

p/s: dont play harsh k. cz once i'm in. too bad.

I LOVE YOU

2011-04-19T21:45:00.000-07:00

Baby, i just wanna thanked you so much for being with me. Thank you so much for being such an understanding person during my hard time. Thank you for the ears and thanks for the shoulders. I love you so muchie muchie my lil munchkin! you'll be paid for that k :D i love you a lot k baby.

H.M.A.S

2011-04-17T20:52:00.000-07:00

Last saturday was our day :) kan b kan? hehe. nothing much cz went to Damai beach resort, kuching. with some other frens too. our activities are so called " sambil menyelam minum air". okay, sape yg tak faham, we did two different things at a time. the beach was so wonderful and so do the swimming pool. hee. :D really had a great time with all the members. :) and i love you so much!

KU MAHU KAU TAHU

2011-04-17T02:10:00.000-07:00

hey baby. i miss you little heart. Those days we had a great moments and times. but now we're just too busy with our days. Sorry won't redeem it. But in anyway it will be, i believed there will be a time for us. right baby? :) I have faith for it baby. Anyway baby, i just wanna appologize to you for keep calling you so many times. I know you dislike the attitude but i'm so in need to get to you. I'm sorry baby. Really i am. I just want you to know i didn't mean to. And if it is not bcz of something that really matters, then i wont baby. I really wont. Sorry baby/ my bad. I just want you to know that i really miss you and i wanna have more time talking to you cz i just have plenty of pages to be storied to you. Take care baby. I'm kinda sick and i am so tired. XoXo. Love you a lot sweetheart!

p/s: baby, i risaukan u. u're sick dah lama dah, even it is just the mouth part. hurm.

Never Put Hopes.

2011-03-10T19:58:00.000-08:00

I want to have it so badly for my last birthday present. But too bad, ain't getting any. It may look simple to you guys but i'm falling for it so much. Too many things to be consider. Hey little watch, can you please wait till i go and get you. Oh miracle, please happen!!

I MISS YOU

2011-01-21T23:39:00.000-08:00

Bila Cinta Kau dustai

2010-12-31T09:45:00.000-08:00

CINTA ITU TERINDAH.

2010-12-26T23:45:00.000-08:00

Hidup ini penuh dengan ranjau berduri
Ada kemanisan juga kepahitan
Walau sementara
Cukup untuk mengajar diri
Lebih bersedia menghadapi dugaan ini

Kau bagakan sinar yang cerah
Mewarnai hidupku
Tanpamu di sisi kurasa bagaikan hilang punca dan arah yang di tuju
Jangan kau mungkiri janji yang kau beri

Cinta itu terindah
Bila saat kubersamamu
Semoga sentiasa membawakan kedamaian
Biarpun berjauhan
Takkan mudah kumelupakan
Kesetiaan ini
Bagiku kau permata asli

I MISS THE OLD US

2010-12-20T08:27:00.000-08:00

Dear little heart, if and only if u know that i am so missing you and i miss the old us so much.

DUA DUA MAHU !!!

2010-12-17T07:54:00.001-08:00

i really want this two stuff ASAP !! gosh! need to get it soon. :D

TERSUNGKUR.

2010-12-13T10:38:00.000-08:00

Pernah aku berharap,
Pernah aku melabur impian,
Pernah aku melukis mimpi,
Harapan ku terbentang luas,
Ingin ku meraih kejayaan,
Usaha aku pertaruhkan,
Biar aku digelar buas,
Namun, hanya satu aku mahu,
Kejayaan,
Tersungkur aku,
Bagai terkena tamparan hebat,
Tercampak aku di lautan bayangan,
Terjatuh aku,
Bagai di lempar ke hamparan keseksaan,
Air mata bukan lagi penyambung nyawa,
Terkapai aku kini,
Tersadai aku di sini,
Menanti esok dan seterusnya,
Tiada lagi cerita indah,
Hilang semua gelak dan tawa,
Di manakah hilangnya?
Kau punya jawapannya,
Sambut tanganku,
Hadirkan dirimu,
Hanya kau yang mampu,
Menimbus diri ku kembali,
Menegak kaki ku untuk berdiri,
Memimpin ku hanya seperti,
Kau memahami,
Rayuku, Pohonku,
Hanya kau yang mampu,
Hanya kau yang ku tunggu,
Bangkitkan diri ku,
Seperti aku ynag dahulu.

ADAKAH SAYA DIKATEGORIKAN SEBAGAI BODOH ATAU TERLALU JUJUR?

2010-08-22T02:10:00.000-07:00

CASE #1

perempuan: awak, saya tak kisah pun dengan sape2 pn awak nak berkawan, tapi ingatlah saya nie teman wanita awak.

lelaki: apa awak nie. saya tahulah.

perempuan: awak, kwn saya shila, mamat, najmi, fariz and suhaila nak ajak saya keluar taw ptg nie. (pada waktu yg lain)

lelaki: awak nie, pentingkan kawan je. saya nie sape ?

perempuan : okay la. saya tak pergi k awak. saya teman msg dgn awak.

permpuan : hello, awak, kat mana? jom teman saya beli brg jap. (pada waktu malam)

lelaki: hello! hah? awak nie knape nak cari barang malam2 pulak. tak nak la.saya dgn kwn saya nie.

perempuan: erm okay la takpela.

CASE #2

perempuan: hello awak. kat mana nie?

lelaki: saya tgh nak main futsal nie.

perempuan: ouh yeke? awak tak bgtahu pun.

lelaki: awak nie kalo sume benda pun nak bgtahu susah lah.

perempuan: saya cuma nak tahu je. dulu kalo pape awak selalu bgtahu saya. smpai nak ke tandas pun tetap akan bgtahu saya.

lelaki: eh dh la dh la. saya nak pegi main nie. nanti la eh. okay bye.

lelaki: eh awak kat mana? tak bgtahu pun saya awak nak pegi kedai.(pada waktu selepas main)

perempuan: sorry awak, saya tak nak kacau awak. saya pegi kejap je pun.

lelaki: tak kisah lah skejap ke lambat ke. saya ni sape?

CASE #3
perempuan: hello awak. tgh buat apa tu?
lelaki: saya tgh buat keje nie. awak buat apa?
perempuan: saya tgh rehat je. saya tak sihat sikit la today awak.
lelaki: awak nie sikit2 tak sihat. lemah sangat.
perempuan: sorry awak. nanti saya pegi tny doc eh apa yg patut saya buat.
lelaki: hmm.

CASE #4
perempuan: awak, bole tak awak jgn kwn sgt dengan dia. saya kurang senangla dgn dia. dia mcm suka kat awak je.
lelaki: awak nie knape? biarlah saya nak kwn dgn sape pn. biarlah kalau dia suka sy pun. memang patut pun la dia suka saya. dh saya handsome nak buat mcm mana. bukan mcm awak. cuba cermin diri awak tu.
perempuan: saya dh cuba yg terbaik untuk awak. tapi still mcm nie jugak reaction awak.
lelaki: saya ckp benda yg betul
perempuan: saya tau. tapi at least awak bole bagi saya support kan instead of being irritating?
lelaki: awak nie. eeeiiisssh. malas la nak layan. susah betul la.
perempuan: awak, sorry okay. sorry. okay2 saya akan berubah dgn lebih lagi.
lelaki: hmm. apa2 la. malas saya nak layan awak.

KERGANT PLUS 3 IN 1

2010-08-19T05:53:00.000-07:00

hello hello hye hye . apa khabaq sume? sihat atau sakit? berwang atau sempit? ahaha. okay. on one fine day, saya, shif,aisa dan zye planned to have our dinner at bunga raya college. okay la. so here goes the dialogue.

mira : *typing message* aisa, ptg nie kita makan bunga raya nak? sedap koooot. air dia besar. masakan dia sebiji mcm makanan semenanjung.

aisa : *reply text* haa? yeke? okay jugak.

so dinner set. sharp 730pm berkumpul di sakura. oh ya, masih ku ingat it was monday. (aha. ko dh nak separuh menulis baru ko nak bgatu waktu kejadian). it was 7 pm. shif and i just end our prep 2 class which was sgt la membosankan dgn mr.martin. ahaha. so we headed to sakura. on the way....

mira : eh shif nanti sementara tunggu diaorang, kita makan waffle dulu nak. sebab kita janji kul 730 kan. so like ada setengah jam lagi.

shif : okay jugak. isi perut kan. jom la. aku nak choclate. ( ya shif, tak tanya pun ko nak choclate ke vanilla ke twister ke :p )

sesampai di sakura, enak enak menguyah waffle choclate, muncul la si aisa dan zye. haa terpacak ko depan kitaorang.

aisa : lets go baby !!

zye : eeeeeiiii dh mcm bodyguard dh ak tgk. payung sume hitam. ( oh ya, lupa nak bgtau. waktu kejadian : hujan renyai2) (ceh ko mira, lupa sume benda sussah dowh)

dua pasang mata mencari2 gambaran statement tersebut.

mira : ha'ah la. ahahaha. aisa punya sorang je pink colour. okay la aisa. ko jadi tour guide kitaorang la. ahaha.

lapan pasang kaki pun berkawat menuju ke arah kekenyangan. cafe bunga raya !! :) dalam perjalanan....

shif : hahaha, dh mcm nak pergi berkabung kita nie. hitam menyerlah. haha. ( shif, hitam kegemaranku. kergant namaku. :D

okay maka setelah meredah jambatan cinta yang berasaskan tasik buatan unimas, dan dlm mengahrungi air mata langit yang tak sudaha menangis, jgn kau meraung sudah hujan, agak2 dlm 20 minit berjayalah tapak kaki tapaki kaki yang bersaizkan anggran 6-8 ke medan bunga raya. so kami pun bergegas la ke kaunter nak order mknan. time nie, sume pn sibuk tanya, survey , ada yg menganalisa dan membuat statistik makanan. memandangkan terdapat 3 sekawan yang eblum pernah merasa keenakan masakan bunga raya, maka, tiba lah salah seorang drpd nya untuk menjadi comander. :)

aisa : wei, nak makan apa nie wei? mcm mana nak order nie?

zye : ha'ah wei, mcm mana wei.

sejak bila ada character org nama wei pn tak tau la.

mira : haaa, kat sini mee goreng mamak dia sedap gile. sumpah sedap. yg lain pn okay je.

berjalan la kami ke kaunter di mana kami telah bertentang mata dengan seorang gadis yang physicallynya okay, tapi setelah dia mengeluarkan gelombang microoorganisma electron, pergghh, wa ckp lu ar, itu gadis ar manyak amoi ouh.!!!

zye dengan beraninya memulakan langkah meminang.

zye : erm kak, nasi ayam ada tak?

akak : (dengan nada yang sgt agressif) NASI AYAM TAKDE, WESTERN TAKDE.!!!

mira dlm hati ( kak, relax la kak. telinga kitaorang bukannya dekat mesir or amerika smpai nak speed up ur velocity of sound. chill sudah. )

haaa amik ko! dush satu. tak cukup lagi dengan si akak. si adik dtg menyampuk. si adik lagi fres, so lagi power mower laa dia.

si adik : SIZZLING TAKDE, CRISPY TAKDE !!!

Haaaa amik ko. tu diaaaa! dan kami pn membesarkan anak dan ibu mata dengan hormon yang sgt terkejut. telingaaa ni dh bergetar dh taw. tinggal tunggu bunyi mcm msg je. haha. tak cukup lagi kauuuuu...

si akak : kalau nak order tengok menu 1,2,3 nie je, yang kiri dengan yg kanan je eh. sambil dia memusing musing pensil untuk ambil order. sekali patah tgn bersyukur aku. haha

mira : errrmmm, okay la nak mee goreng mamak satu.

si akak : number 57 !!

aisa : nak kuey teow goreng satu.

si akak : number 56!!

shif : mee hailam satu.

si akak : number 58

zye : nasi goreng kampung satu.

si akak : 59!!

then kitaorang pn beredar laaa dr kaunter si gadis hebat tu. perghh. annoying tahap kritikal.

zye : gile mcm dekat wad hospital ouh. nak kena amik nombor segala.

mira : ahaha.

aisa : arrogant gile ouh kakak tu.

zye : kerek giler dowh.

shif : sombong giler nak mati.

aisa : eh arrogant dgn sombong sama kan?

mira : kergant wei kergant.

masing masing menentang mata masing masing. sambil menujukan persoalan yang tak mungkin tercetus.

zye : ahahaha. bole wei bole kergat kergant.

mira : kerek+ arrogant.

shif dan aisa : bergelak sakan ye korang. haahah

so kitaorang pegi la ke kaunter untuk meneguk pulak setelah 15 minit berperang gelombang bunyi dengan si kergant tue.. haha. tiba di kaunter minuman...

mira : nak nescafe ais satu.

aisa : neslo satu.

dan tak tau mcm mana langkah zye dengan shif agak lambat sedikit masa tu, so diaorang landing lambat sikit dekat kaunter minuman. by the time diaorang smpai, air yang kami order telah pun siap. zye dan shif pn baru je nak memulakan order mereka...

zye : neslo satu kak.

shif : neslo satu.

si akak air : tu dh siap.

aisa memandang dgn penuh berhemat. menimbulkan persoalan...

aisa : ni kan saya punya kak..

okay.. dan akak tu pun sama jugak la mcm si kergant tu. buat muka yg sgt berwawasan. terima kasih la ye kak.

then kitaorang pn bayar and cari tempat duduk. sambil duduk sambil kami bercerita. okayla sejujurnya, kami 90% mengumpat. ni sume pasal si kergant tuuu.

okay guys.. cuba teka dh berapa lama kitaorang tgu makanan untuk sampai?? hahaha..

jawapnnyaaa ... adalah dlm satu setngah jam jugak. baru la bole dpt makan. hahaha. maklumla sistem bernombor kan. kenala ikut angka giliran. korang kalau dengar akak tu panggil customer untuk amik makanan, sure bole dpt mimpi terindah. paling kurang pn, perfect lullaby la. hahaha.

demo eh demo..

si akak : NASI GORENG AYAM!!!! NUMBER FIFTY ONE!!!

akak nie kalau ada anugerah komunikasi berkesan memang confirm dapat kak. pergghh dia punya laungan jeritan suara menusuk ke organ2 dalaman sampai aisa yang baru balim dr tandas pn rasa nak pegi tandas lagi. haha. selagi tak terpacak tauan empunya nasi tu, selagi tu dia akan mempertingkatkan sistem jana bunyi dia. hebat kak kergant hebat!

okay cerita sekarang nie, sume dh ada dh makanan. cumaaaa zye punya je belum smpai. bengan tak bengan, dh sepuluh kali lima dh "babi" yang terkeluar secara sengaja hasil drpd hormon yang membara bara.

mira : wei, cuba ko pegi tanya wei.

shif : ha'ah la pa kata ko pegi tanya kergant tu.

aisa : mana tau dia terlupa kot ke apa ke.

mira : mcm mana nanti kalo tiba2 ko pegi dia kata sorry la dik dh takde.

zye : haaa babi goreng ada???

agak terserlah kemarahan di situ ye zye. kami faham. dh la lapar kan. lambat pulak nombor ko nak kena panggil kan. ni kalo basuh baju, 2 kali round dh habis dh kot. hahaha.

so zye pn bersetuju menerima cadangan kitaorang. dia pn menyambut sahutan untuk menemu bual akak kergant tu lagi sekali. ahaha. dlm5 minit dia menemu ramah, langkahnya berpaling ke meja kami duduki.

mira : nape wei?

zye : ko tau dia kata jap eh, tengah nak buat. memang babi la kan. menggelabah cari order ak. nak semak2 buku order pulak tu. pergghh.

sumpah ouh zye muka lu masa tu kan wa ckp ar mcm itu erra fazira masa 6 tahun ouh. (okay mcm mana eh muka erra fazira 6 tahun?)

lama punya lama punya penantian, selamat jugak la smpai nasi goreng tu ke meja kami. tapiiiii.....

makanan zye dh smpai okay la fine la.. dh masuk dua tiga kucing berlari, masukla kau nasi. kedengarannnn..

zye : yucks !!! masin giler dowh!!!!

pergh kergant nie melampau gile. mcm nie sistem ko ye. hmm. so basically kami sume makanmee goreng mamak je sebab yg lain punya order mcm tak memuaskan. tapi serious la, minuman dia kenyang and makanan dia sgt bnyk. ko kalo goreng satu boe, share satu saf jemaah taw. haha. so whats next? jam pun dh pukul 9.15 malam. tak tau our next destination.. tiba2..

bunyi mcm fon aisa...

haa, memang pn bunyi fon diaa.

aisa : huh? ko nak suruh ak dtg timur sekarang? ko tau tak now dh 9.15 wei. malam wei.

lepas letak fon dia pn memberitahu berita kebenaran.

aisa : wei, kampus timur terbakat wei. fakulti fss terbakar. lab terbakar.

mira, shif, zye : huh? biar betul?

zye : ha'ah la wei . tgk sume kereta2 tu sume gerak ke sana kot. wei jom la kita ke sana. jom la. kita mesti ada kat sana. experience kot.

mira : haa jom la jom la. bole bua liputan ke kan. mcm ala ala karam singh walia.

kitaorang pn bergegas ke bwh untuk tunggu bus. tak lama, kami pn menaiki bus and smpai ke kampus timur. kejadian kebakaran memang berlaku and status terbakar adalah sangat teruk. hampir sume nya ranap dan hancur. keadaan sgt gelap so malangnya tak dpt nak men-snap photo :( tapi adalah sedikit slot rakaman api.

AKU DI HANTUI BLUEEEEE!!

2010-08-14T08:40:00.000-07:00

jam menunjukkan tepoat 11.52 malam, bersama saya, Amirah Aqilah dalam rancangan baju-baja. haha. okay. hye to everyone. long time no see. hehe. bukan apa, terlalu busy measang tiang rumah dan segala tangga. nak mengukuhkan lagi la katakan. hehe. eversince saya berada di sarawak, timbul satu keinginan yang sgt lah luar biasa. ianya berlaku sejak beberapa hari yang lalu. keinginan untuk mengecapi nikmat yang sgt tinggi. seriously ouh. never feel like this before taw. maybe sebab this is my first attempt. heee. so whats the new thng taht makes me so desirable? its somethng that i never had before and saya pun tak tahu mcm mana bole jadi sgt teruja dan gian kan benda nie. sampai saya rasa and i said to myself " kalo dpt ni will make me so happy" hehe. lately saya asyik usha benda yang berwarna biru sahaja. tak tahu knape. maybe baru dapat hidayah untuk teruja dgn benda biru kot. hehe. especially baju. dia punya excited nak membeli baju berwarna biru melebihi paras 300 dari bawah. haha. maybe sebab2 faktor luaran seperti ramai yang menonjolkan keberkesanan diri dgn warna biru, ataupun faktor dalaman seperti tidak pernah memiliki baju atau benda berwarna biru. hehe. sampai kalo ibu tanay baju raya tahun nie nak pakai warna ape? i straight away ckp " vote for blue" hehe. i guess i really gonna go for it. hehe. nak beli baju biru. seluar biru. kasut biru. and sume pn biru. adoi. pening. whats next? haha. gold maybe. yellow? tunggulah dapta hidayah. haha.

A NEW ADVENTUROUS LIFE IN UNIMAS

2010-07-19T04:38:00.000-07:00

hey there people. its been so long that i didn't call u guys up for my bad, sad, worst, big,small,happy,worth and so so on stories. haha. its not that i had demise.(people often say that to me when i'm off) i'm just getting more busy with a lot of so called stuffssssss. haha. well, right after finished my matrics which has caused me a trouble life maker, such a disaster to me yeah, i can sya that. haha. i hate matrics. i was suppose to achieve more than i can but too bad i didnt. haha. amik kau. tu la. orang dh ckp, ikhlaskan diri . bila kita tak ikhlas nak terima sesuatu benda , then it will reflect to us back.haha. anyway, perkara pn dah lepas. haha. result pn dah dpat and keputusan berada dlm sampul surat yang berwarna coklat dan sangatlah buruk. haha. ramai yang dtg dekat saya tanya " hye, buat pe je cutu nie? dh dpt tempat kat ipta ke? apply apa?" bole dikatakan semua yang dijumpai semua akan mengajukan soalan yang sama. at that time rasa mcm nak record je jwpn then evrytime jumpa just click play on. haha. right, so, well, okay, (hahahaha) during the holidays i was involve in a few matters. standard occupation untuk para pra graduan matric akan menempah nama di semua shopping complex or kedai handfon or maybe yang paling banyak MCD . haha. fun to have money yeah !! okay la, i did the same thing to. but i can say that i'm involve in different ways of earning. hehe. John C.Maxwell ckp"if u are about to earn.then make it on your own. or else u will regret later on" i was kinda attracted to the phrase and i was questioning myself about it. just to make it clear.hehe. it means that start a business. haha.(okay sounds mcm nak promote je business i) haha. well, i was doing some education business which benefits a lot. (seriously!) haha. right nothing much to say about the business stuff cz i hate to make it more as people will tag me as "poyo la nak menunjukla" haha. pelik je cz bila kita tak cakap then they will end up saying that we doesnt want to share with them . tapi bila ckp then we'll received those shit form them. haha. and times fly by. i then received an offer letter from UNIMAS . haha. biggy stuff to talk men! haha. it was quite a shocked for me as i didnt apply for the place or even the course itself. haha. okay i was offered a degree course in biotechnology resource with honoured which will make me sit there for 3 yrs. good enough to produce another eye bag. haha. right so i went there on the 3rd july 2010. dengan bangganya saya ingin menyatakan sarawak was nice but unimas is much more "nicer" hahaha. seriously for the whole of my life i never seen such campus. a big campus i must say but the sad thing is that the management and maintanence is sooooo baddddd! haha. rumah mc tongkang pecah. haha. i cant really suits myself there. usually kalo saya dicampak di mana mana bumi pn saya boleh menyesuaikan diri. but this time its so hard foe me . dont know why. haha. and i must say that its an adventurous life staying there. everyday ur life will be like the heart attack patient. surprise news evryday i must say. haha. kdg2, when u're happy on that day bcz u had a late class, then bila bgn, ur roomate will smile to u. we will think taht she's nice but actually she will end up with this dialogue " air tak ada" hahaha. hmmm, so i decide to make a transfer to anyway it may take me as long as i'm near to my hommie. hehe. currently i'm just not ready yet to stay far or going overseas as i wish and as i dream.

the matter called "LOVE"

2010-01-20T00:25:00.000-08:00

when u're away..
how i wish u could just stay.

when u're here ..
how i wish u wouldnt dissappear.

though we're apart..
u're never discard.

sometimes i feel like heaven.
the moment i'm with u.
my love begins to widen.
as i fall more for u.

do u hear me?
do u feel me?
i wish u were here every morning.
with a kiss , a hug that splash me away.
i feel like i'm flying.
give me back my fantasy.
cause it kills me .
make it reality.
cause it will be.
no sooner.
no tomorrow.
no a day later.
just make it faster.

i wish u are besides me in the night.
sway with me.
laugh with me.
just stay tight.
cause i never wanna miss ur smile.
cause i never wanna miss ur touch.
cause i never wanna miss ur expression.
ur voice inspire me a lot.
ur guidance courage me.
ur love make it more.

dear love,
can i just have u for eternity?

Ak

2009-12-26T19:09:00.001-08:00

you're the only one i put in my life.i never need anyone else like i need you.i really love you and i'll be forever loving you.you're my breath.you're my life.i cant describe this feeling here but i'm very sure its indelible.i love you.

deeply loving you,
-AK-

the return

2009-11-27T08:26:00.000-08:00

dear readers,
sorry 4 not updating my blog 4 such a long time.
recently i've something ore important 2 catch up
which determines my life,
i was running,speeding,drift n do evrything i can,
to reach to that golden of our's,
yes,our's..
its a full of dreams n hopes,
n i'm working it out,
n i know it is the only mattert that i'm looking forward,
the most imortant thing 4 me rite now n forever,
so dear readers,will catch u guys later k,
will make a come back soon,
see ya!

HORRIBLE ASSINGMENT.HURM

2009-09-12T10:29:00.000-07:00

firstly,i would like to appologize..a millions of appologize cz dh lama x tulis blog..terlampau buzy..hehe
as u all know..sy diberi satu mission yg sgt penting..yes the so called horrible assingment..assingment yg membuatkan sy bekejar ke sana dan ke sini untuk membina reputasi yang baik ..haha..its the bio assingment that i'm talking about..sehari sbelum kami menghantar "kerja" nie ..a lot of things came up..video x bole masuk la..komputer x bole baca la..memangla komputer x bole baca..kena la hantar peg sek dulu. baru bole belajar membace..then komputer x bole mengeja la..mewarna la..melukis la..menaip la..haih..then ade plak masalah hilang document la..hilang information la..haih..dah mcm bank je..kena rompak..haha..dan disebabkan masalh2 yg timbul..konflik antara manusia turut timbul..ahli2 kumpulan,seorang demi seorang mengundur diri dan menyepi..tinggallah dua org makhluk yg bertungkus lumus menyiapkan kerja "KUMPULAN" ..tepat jam 10 mlm kami berdua berlari ke blok atas bukit di mana cyber cafe terletak semata2 untuk burn CD..baik2 dh merancang untuk menunaikan terawih..kena cancel just sebab kerja "kumpulan" nie..hurmm..ape pun thanked god that evrything completed well n successfully received by Pn.Syuriza,our bio tutor lecturer..hope u like it teacher..and thanks 4 all the cooperation n team work (kalo ade) guys..adios..!

YOU

2009-07-19T05:24:00.000-07:00

everybody is after me..but the only one i want is YOU.yes, i want YOU!!

THINGS TO BE DONE IN TWO WEEKS TIME.

2009-07-19T00:59:00.000-07:00

since i'm having a term break for two weeks so i guess i'll be having a few hours just for myself as i've spent most of it for others..hehe..well i just hope that everything is smoothly done..few things to be done within this two weeks..

Buy a new phone since the one i'm using going to be dead soon.haha..sorry didnt mean to.i'd takecare of u but it seems that u're no longer belong to me..sorry lil phone..rest in peace ok..haha..the process would be late as my dad dont really agree to buy for me..as he said"no,not at the moment.i'm v busy" yes dad.."busy"..i dont mind pun cz u're answer is expected..as usual..haha..but to buy a new one is a must! shall discuss wit mom..
prepare something to get side income.i plan to teach people mengaji or mayb tuition..so kpd budak2 yang memerlukan bantuan perkhidmatan pembelajaran sahaja dan bukan pengajaran silalah ke kaunter saya..hehe..
to get my assignment done.this one is a tough one cz for this job ..we need to do animation project..yes,kalo suruh buat kartun then i dont mind..but what i need to do is to transform a few samples of virus into an animation..hurm need to install the software n stuff..to be done!!-full of craps-
to do an advance study.so that when the time comess it would be a revision for me..bijak tak saya??haha..sangat vain..hehe..as we all know pre-U is the toughest process for the nxt one..u shall struggle so that u'll be easy when u're in U later..bak kata "semua orang" xtau la betul ke tak..haha..so every night study..but for maths will hav to think first..hahaha..yang penting bio n chem i shall get it done!!
to settle everything that need to be settle.(private and confidential)
to help my mom as much as i can.."dear mom,i can see the pain in ur eyes..but stay cool..i'll try my best ok.." "chill..chill" hehe..n she did ask me to create a wishing card for her student..5 setia..it was my ex-clas..sangat "rock" ..haha."will do mom :) "
to wash my car everyday..haha..yes.. setiap hari..ini kerana mereka2 telah mengotorkan kreta sayang saya..:( sangat kesian.. :( takpe2 cik kereta lepas nie saya cantik2 kan awak ok..setiap hari.. :)
to get myself motivated enough..i need to find all the strength back..i need to find all the confidence i had before..i need to find all the patience i had before for the unexpected contingency.".dear god..return me my strenght that i had before..dear god,alwiz keep me in ur lane..save me from everything that could harm me."

last but not least is to spent more time wit u..yes, u my dear..my someone..n my everything..will try my best ok.. :)

so..pls pray that i can get all the stuff done within this two weeks..thank you for all ur support..whatever it is i'll try my best to strive for the perfection..yeah..insyaAllah..i believe that HE knows the best for my life..

today would be yesterday and tomorrow will be today.

2009-07-17T08:39:00.000-07:00

today..we stand up here..
leaving the life to the maximum..
tomorrow..we may need to secure..
the right choice of the column..

today..we endeavour in finding something..
grabbing all the possible chance we could ever had..
tomorrow..we may need to search anything..
just to make us feel glad..

today..we run for the truth..
leaving all the others behind or away..
tomorrow..we may need to walk in between..
aiming from being astray..

today..we're fed with desires..
and without any contradiction ..we act towards it..
tomorrow..we may need to keep some..
to strive for the perfection of others..

YA ALLAH

2009-06-27T00:56:00.000-07:00

Ya Allah Ya tuhanku..
hambamu merindukan..
rahmat kasih sayang-Mu..
dan jua keredhaan-Mu..
meskipun ku ulangi..
dosa noda yang menjanjikan..
azab neraka..
namun ku sedari..
keampunan -Mu tidak bertepi..
ku akui diri ini hamba yang mungkir pada janji-janji..
jadikanlah taubat ini yang sejati..
pada-Mu ilahi..
ya Allah..
ampunkanlah dosa2 ku..
Ya Allah..
redha kan lah kehidupanku..
ya Allah..
berikanlah kekuatan dan ketabahan yang pernah Kau berikan padaku..
agar aku sentiasa berada pada jalan -Mu ..

.

2009-06-20T18:28:00.000-07:00

The only person who can make women cries..
day and night..
seeking for the true love..
is him.

The only person who can make women sigh..
throughout all the days..
hoping for the best..
is him.

The only person who can grab everything..
but impossible to give something..
to the seekers..
is him.

The only person who can create anything..
but impossible to explain something..
even for a single question..
makes the people wonder why..
is him.

The only person who have everything..
but fail to give something..
is also him.

The person who works each and every day..
trying to performing his best..
for the sake of life or maybe lifessss..
is also him.

Its undescribable..its unpredictable..
the actions n all the scenes..
but i'll constantly pray..
to the Almighty..
may u have the wonderful thinking..
to see the truth..
to observe the circles..
to determine the way or maybe ways..
to strive for the perfection..
to run through the history or maybe histories..
to walk through the right ones..
to hold the faith..
and to stand with the unconditional love..
for us..for us..and only us..
i'll pray for the day..
will alwiz..n alwiz..

*happy father's day*

U ARE THE REASON WHY PEOPLE THINK I'M UNGRATEFUL A.K.A FIRST ABUSEMENT.

2009-06-19T18:49:00.000-07:00

Its alwiz been UR FAULT..yes YOU!! you begin the game n u drag us all there.You drag us to go through the risk of urs..which we never ask for it..WE NEVER ASK FOR IT!!!! I DONT KNOW FOR WHAT REASON THAT U HAVE TO PICK A LIFE LIKE THIS..i totally dont mind BUT YOU FORCE US TO INVOLVE TOO..WTH????? n for the first time u did ur first abusement n i really thanked for that..cz now people would say that i'm grateful enough since all this while i was not(mengikut kata2 mereka).So thank you..millions of thank you!! go ahead wit what u're doin but for all u know i'm praying hard for the best of us.i pray that anda akan dijumpakan ke jalan yang benar..come back..for her n the others...

THE SCARY NIGHTMARE

2009-05-29T10:11:00.000-07:00

i had never gone through any nightmare..yes..this a fact of my life..one thing that i alwiz appreciate..thanked to god.. that i've been sleep well evry night..alhamdulillah..n i alwiz wonder the feelings of heaving a bad dream or so called nightmare..how's the feeling an d stuff..untill i get my whole new life..yeah..'matrics life.' one night..actually bukan mlm pun..mase 2 tertido waktu maghrib for like one hour je..sebab selalu sgt fikir psl bad dream yg org lain lalui..on that day itself..i had mine..its undescribable..seriously..memang teruk gile mimpi 2..when i woke up..i was kinda stunned to recall evrything back..but seriously..i pray that i wont go through it again..pls..hurmm lame jugak la duduk berfikir mengimbas kembali mimpi buruk 2..terlalu buruk sampai x nampak apa2..haih..the worst part is evrytime i tried to recall it..it makes me feel scary gile2..takut gle..sampai fobia nk tengok katil n fobia nak tdo..whenever i lay down on the bed..i'll feel like sitting on d scary machine that give u all the shock n fierce..tak kelakar ok..believe it or not but i cried 4 like a few times la..sebab terlalu takut..sgt2 takut..n now evry nite will b the moment that i cant face through walaupun terpaksa..bila mlm je parkinson akan dtg menyerang..haha..but anyway thanks to YOU who tried to make me feel relieved..u'd help me a lot..thank you v much..n everyday i pray hard that evrything will be fine.. :(

TERRIBLE..MISERABLE..

2009-05-16T07:48:00.000-07:00

Today just came back from the terrible life there..haha..4 ur information i'm now away to matriculation at kuala pilah,negeri sembilan disebabkan tidak mendapat mane2 tawaran UPU..so terpaksalah menetap dan memilih matrikulasi sebagai pusat perkembangan minda yh kedua setelah menamatkan SPM..hehe..mcm biasalah..the 1st week was d orientation week..it was really sucks!! believe it or not..sepanjang 18 tahun saya hidup..n this is my 1st orientation.haha..so like kinda not get use 2 it n i find it miserable n v v v terrible..haha..kira hari je bila lah nk balik..haha..sepanjang berada di sana..i keep on worried bout my laptop n my car..haha..seriously..i realized that i cant live without them..haha..but at the same time..keep on reminding myself that this is d fact ..n i hav to go through it 4 one year..haha..xpela..sacrifice to survive..wahaha..but seriously orientation was damn sucks..i didnt participate in any of the acivities..then buat ape??haha..tido la ape lag..hak3..sampai mentor saya ckp.."mira!!ko ni asyik tdo je!!" haha..but one thing i learn...haha..mcm bese la menambahkan koleksi "pengalaman hidup"..hehe..i learned a lot.. :)..hak3..biarlah rahsia..wahaha..n next week..dah mula kuliah..haha..dh xde ucapan.."selamat pagi cikgu" hehe..now we hav to trained ourselves to greet all the lecturers.. "morning ma'am/sir" haha..will c how la..hak3..owh x sabarnye nk belajar balik..sakit otak..dh keras dh..hahaha..erm so the time has begin..yeah!! haha..will c u guys later..!

SAD BUT YET HAPPY.

2009-05-08T06:20:00.000-07:00

TODAY WAS A SAD DAY FOR ME ..from now onwards i had to live without their laughter..no more cute expressions..no more adorable actions and no more funny2 things that i can never get from outside..it only exist in their period..so far i had never seen the same case happen to growing teenagers..hehe..today..i had to leave them walaupun berat hati nk tinggalkan mereka..hurmm..today tamat sudah tempoh perkhidmatan saya sebagai guru tadika..haha...actually my contract is untill end of may..tap disebabkan masalah2 yg tak dapat dielakkan..terpaksalah buat short notice of resignation ..haha..erm i'm soooooooooooooooo gonna miss those kids la..haih..they are soooooooooooooo cute and adorable sgt2.hak3..seriously all their characters makes u feel guilty to scold them and at last u end with laughing together with them..hahahaha..ermm so like today memandangkan last day..i quickly habiskan my last teaching..then snap a few pics 4 d memories..nant kalo stress bole tgk all those pics..terubat cket...haha..but yet i'm happy too bcz i had a new experience in my life..suka sgt buat koleksi "pengalaman hidup' hey bukan senang taw nk dpt pengalaman..i mean like yes evrybody will hav their own xperience..tap bukan sume pengalaman yg kite dpt 2 betul2 pengalaman..it might b just a waste one..nk dapat pengalaman hidup sama la mcm kite nk amik xam..kena bace buku..then berani untuk menghadapi segala risiko..then kalo terjatuh semangat untuk bangun balik dan meneruskan strategi untuk berjaya..hahaha..craps.!!hak3..yes i had a v enjoyable moments with them n i gain a lot during my short service..haha..yeah!!

IS IT POSSIBLE TO MAKE IT DONE??

2009-05-01T09:47:00.000-07:00

When u had got the title"lepasan spm" there's tooo many to settle down especially bout the UPU stuff..hurmm i thought when we had finished writing the last paper of SPM we could just shout n yelled n enjoy our next life..but things turn out the other way..i lupa yang ade pepatah mengatakan.."semakin kite membesar semakin banyak tanggungjawab yang akan dipikul"haha..ok back to d story..erm while keep proceeding wit my "kerjaya sementara" (hehe) i still think bout what i'm goin to hav 4 my further study..hurmm after 100 times discussion wit mostly my dad ..he finally registered me under the fast track intake of medicine studies..according to Mr.Alex..i'm a fresh student that will face a very tought time ..but my dad bole ckp "owh xpe..she can pick up" and i was like"Ya Allah ayah ingat nie main kutip2 bola ke??" haha..seriously...but nothing i can do selain menurut perintah..so like Mr.Alex ckp.."its ok if she can pass the xam n u'll get the place.." n my dad terus cakap "ok deal sir" but 4 me.."xam??? what exam??"
and Mr.Alex with his innocent smile said that " its a pre-medic test ..stpm standard"
straight away i was like"huh??stpm??but i didnt learn anything yet ??"
Mr.Alex dengan tenangnye menjawab "xpe..as long as u memorize all the answers in this 4 books everything will be fine"
i take a look at those books..kinda hard 4 me but i'll try my best la..haih..tap kadang2 rasa mcm tak mampu owh..hurmm but whatever it is..i want it!!c how la..haha..trying to make everything possible ..(",)

SELAMAT TINGGAL SAYANG

2009-05-01T09:20:00.000-07:00

Awak selalu teman saya ..Awak selalu ade bersama saya..Awak je yg selalu dengar setiap kata2 hati saya..kan??terima kasih awak..setiap hari kalo saya rasa sedih..kalo saya rasa keseorangan dan bila saya rasa saya perlukan teman..awak selalu ade bersama saya..saya ingat lag bile kite sama-sama nyanyi lagu titanic 2 kan..i played the notes n chords while u give the beats..we spent time like every evening..then mlm2 kalau i feel like i need u ..u'll come n again we spent the whole night together..u alwiz give me ur heart to know everything..terima kasih awak..tap satu hari awak dh tak ade..saya cuba cari..tap awak tak muncul2 pun..saya cari awak merata-rata tap still tak muncul jugak..then bila saya tanye ayah saya..dia ckp awak dh xde..awak kena panah petir..hurmmmmm so sekarang saya xtau nk ckp ngan sape dh..sape nk menyanyi dengan saya..hurmmm xpe awak..saya akan cuba rawat awak ok..ayah kata dia akan dapatkan yg baru tap saya xnak..saya akan cuba rawat awak ok..awak bersabar ye...mungkin mengambil mase yang lame..

DADDY ON SUNDAY.

2009-04-19T00:19:00.000-07:00

Today daddy fulfill his promisses to us ..hehe...actually he supposed to bring us "kai-kai"(jalan2)..haha yesterday(saturday) but mcm biasa la tak jadi..haha..so today he made it..haha..tahniah2..hak3..it's alwiz been like that..when it came to saturday he will say"ok hari nie kite peg jln2" tap mesti x jadi..n we will go on the next day..bole dikatakan setiap sabtu mcm 2..haha..so today we went to bangunan Sultan Abdul Samad cz athirah need to snap a few picures 4 her KST..so dh alang-alang snap photos kitaorang pun skali la..haha..then we head to PWTC..BOOK FAIR!!!!hehe..the place were soooooooooooooo crowded that we cant even breath..haha..bak kata athirah"haih..x bole nafas aku.."haha..ermm daddy,aiman,aleeya,arrazi x ikut..so they were like jalan2 dekat the mall..so only me n tra je yg peg shopping buku..haha..we bought 5 books..wahaha..tra bought 4 n one is enough for me..aku bukan mcm ko tra..ulat buku..hahaha..after spending one hour there..we then head to daddy's place..b4 that peg beli baju dulu..haha..dh sale..so beli la..peluang ma..haha..daddy called dia kat."tunggu situ..ayah datang"we were like "ermm??wat pe??"guess what??daddy pun shopping..haha..he was like.."qla..yang nie x nak??" "tra..yg ni bagus,cantik"haha..ayah kalo beli barang memang mcm 2..kalo bole sume dia suruh beli..even if we said"nak buat ape?bukan pakai pun nant" n he will say"xpe..simpan..mane tau nant2 nk pakai.."haha..ok daddy.. :) ermm he also bought pants 4 him n nak beli kasut tap x de saiz..haha..xpela daddy nant kite peg tempat lain ye..haha..erm around 1.30 we went back home..wahaha..so like daddy is alwiz free on sunday..wahahaha..thnx v much daddy!!

..

FOR U

2009-04-17T08:16:00.000-07:00

i can never tell u how much i luv u..
i can never show u how much i care for u..
i can never tell how much i miss u..
i can never show how much i need u..
i can never tell how long i've been waiting for u..
i can never show how many tears of mine just for u..
i can never..i can never..and ever..

i may look deceptively..
i may be innocent..
i may not be serious..
i may be smug..

but i'm totally stuck!!
stuck in every way that exist..
stuck in every moment that chases..
after me,myself and i..

i tried to explain everything in every way that i can..
i tried hardly..
i tried hardly..
i tried hardly..
but it seems to end vaguely..

everything that happened was imperceptibly..
i had neither ask nor pray for it..
never ..never..and never..

i can never ignore it nor throw it away..
although i want it to happen that way..

but how shall i continue within it?
how shall i ?
how shall i?
how shall i?

to tell u the truth..
how could i would?
to tell u every single thing..
what would u think?

CONTINGENCY

2009-04-17T07:06:00.000-07:00

Should i cry?
or should i laugh?

Should i go?
or should i stay?

Should i smile?
or should i just sigh?

Should i follow?
or should i make my own way?

Should i remember?
or should i just forget everything?

Should i keep it?
or should i just throw it?

Should i continue?
or should i just get a new one?

Should i leave?
or should i wait?

the way itself is impassed..
where is or are the sign/signs??
i don't see any..
should i or shouldn't i??
for this unconditional life,favourable love,and wonderful mankind..

p/s:i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo missing u arwah fad!!(ya Allah berikan lah aku kekuatan..)

REALLY NEED TIME!!

2009-04-12T08:23:00.000-07:00

HEY THERE..

i'm not back yet..huhu..em v v v sorry for not updating the blog for like 1 month..hehe..i was toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo busy not with the worksssssssssssssssssssssss but wit the mattersssssssssssssssssssssssssss which i need to settle immediately..hurmm wonder when it will end..huhu..so like to all the bloggers n my followers(",) be patient..hehe..i'll be back ASAP..i hope u guys akn bnyk bersabar..ni la akibatnye kalo dh berkawan baik dgn perdana menteri..i pun dpt jawatan PM GAK..which is pengurus masalah..wahahaha..so will c u guys later..!!!

p/s:to kaera..i'm v v v v v v sorry..u'll understand one day..thnx v v v v much 4 evrything!!i promise i'll pay back d time!!

BE RIGHT BACK

2009-03-31T06:57:00.000-07:00

FIRST WORD:
-Sorrry sangat2..
EXPLANATION:
-hehe..nowadays i'm kinda busy..i mean really really busy..just can't handle it..
-everyday my day would be packed like the sardin in the can..wahaha..
-serious shit..tooooooooooooooooooooooo many things to cover up..
-in addition there's thousands,bundle of,millions of so called diasater"PROBLEM"(life destroyer)
hak3..

SECOND WORD:
-thank you..
EXPLANATION:
-life getting miserable..yes i do noticed that..hehe..but i would like to thanked to all who concern bout me nmy blog..haha..yes..thnx v v v much..they do ask.."lame x update blog" and i would just give them a big smiley face..wahahaha..
thnx again..

THIRD WORD:
-i miss you..
EXPLANATION:
-dalam sibuk menguruskan kehidupan ini..hehe..i do miss a lot of my frens..lag2..bell..she went to ns n will b back soon..haha..i really miss her la..huk3..we had a v v great time together..haha..by the way..thnx 2 kaera ..thnx 4 everything ya..hehe..
-yes..i do miss you..(u noe who u r) hehe..
-and i miss arwah fad..hurmmmm.. awk..huk3:(

LAST WORD:
will be right back..
EXPLANATION:
-i'm damn busy 4 the time being..menguruskan hal2 dunia..haha..em sorry but there's just too much to b settled down..i mean plenty of them.its kinda serious matter..so i hope u guys would understand..
-anyway..i promise i'll be right back soon..i will ok..so c ya!!thnx n sorry.. :)

TERIMA KASIH..

2009-02-27T08:01:00.000-08:00

rite as u know today is 27.02.09..haha..well today is actually my birthday!!wahaha..getting old already..muahaha..but nothing special..cz i dun really care ..it is just d same..tap dh tua..hahaha..x suka,x suka..hak3..ermm so pag wake n peg keje mcm bese but today was kinda bad day 4 me.huhu..ade prob cket la kat tadika 2..tristen,one of my student..v v v cute but v v v naughty..like to bit his friend..n the case become even worst when wei kang(my student also)get hurt bcz of him n the worst ever part is when his mother start 2 complain n guess what ..his aunty allso come to support..come on la..u dun hav to annaunce this matter..haha..tap as 4 me..try hard 2 solve the bigggggg prob..haha..n d result is : "RAHSIA"..Hehe..em ok then balik keje..siap2..n hadap laptop..on9 n update some stuff..n also wat keje..huhu..ntah mcm mane ntah bole tertido plak..hehe..nsb baik bell txt ajak kuar..haha..then after asar prayer we went out..first peg coffee bean beli cafe latte' n then bakery's beli bun then peg amik anak buah dia ,haikal,then peg victory beli murtaba then peg mpsj..haha..jumpa syed!!hahaha..bell suka la 2..wahaha..em then around 7 balik lah kami..ahaks!!mlm 2 plak dad did a surprise..haha..he give me a small present but yet it's nice..huhu..so thnx dad..really like it..wahaha..
here i would like to thnx to:
-Kak shaira
-firdaus
-zaidatul
-bell
-puteri
-fathirah
-kak farah
-aziera
-wan amirah
-shaheena
-amir
-syamil
-yatie
-hanif
-kak yan
-some network friends..hehe
for all ur wishes..thnx v v v much..muahaha...n dad,yhnx 4 d DKNY WATCH..Huhu..

WHAT HAPPENED IN PENANG??

2009-02-26T07:17:00.000-08:00

SATURDAY,21 FEB 09

7.40 a.m:

-get up and wash my face n prepare breakfast untuk mereka2 yg masih di buai mimpi ngeri..hehe
-mom went to school 4 PIBG meeting ..so i just cook curry n fried roti canai..(nsb baik akak dh
buat air)(",)

9.00 a.m:

-the two hero n heroin(aiman n aleeya) awake..so mandikan diaorang,kasi mkn n they start their
own actvt..wahaha
-while me ..siap2 kan brg2 untuk di bawa ke destinasi kami pd hari ini..haha.

12.00:

-the journey starts!! yeah!!
-hey penang,here we come!huhu

2.12 p.m:

-stop at sg.perak 4 a short break..hehe

4.30 p.m:

-we are here now..penang!!
-then head to mrsm kepala batas 2 vst my lil bro,afiq.
-aleeya n aiman were very2 excited to see him..besela..haha
-afiq told us about his new life there..from A-z..haha
-about 5 ,we went away to check in hotel..at the same time afiq need to go 4 a debate
competition..so i guess that we'll meet him later je la..hehe
-otw to the hotel,dad stop by to get some hot stuff..hehe..guess what??goreng pisang!!haha..
the taste was a lil bit diff but after all it was nice..hehe

6.00 p.m:

-finally we check in at "the pearl view hotel"about 10 km from afiq's place..
-the hotel was not that bad..we didnt expect any special rooms n stuff as we are here 4 one night
only..so medum one should be ok rite..hehe
-dad booked 2 rooms...we take a short nap..rest n get ready ourselves..haha

7.10 p.m:

-went 2 "restoran subaidah" 4 dinner..
-too bad cz i had a problem with my taste buds..this is all bcz of u!!yes, u mr.mucus n mr.s flu
-at 8 we went back 2 hotel..

8.30 p.m:

-dunno what 2 do as we had taken our shower..mkn pn dh..haha
-aiman n arrazi had already starts their special actvt.nplaying ps2 which they brought from
home..hurmm..

9.08 p.m:

-bcz of the extra bored..athirah suggest to snap some crazi picss..hahaok..it's a crazy one..huhu
-dad went 4 a meeting..hurmm cuti 1 hari pn ade meeting..peg mane2 pn mest nak jumpa
"wanted guest"hehe..he said that business doesnt know what is time..whatever la dad..

9.30 p.m:

-aktiviti gila2 sudah pn selesai..hehe..
-aiman n aji still with the ps2..atirah study sejarah..haha..mlm2 study sej..wahahaha..me??doin
nothing bsides writing this lame stuff..haha

SUNDAY, 22 FEB 09

8 a.m:

-wake up from the sweet dream.haha.sweet la sgt..
-mandikan aiman n aleeya then get ready.pack brg2 n stuff untuk bertolak balik ke selangor..hm

8.45 a.m:

-mom,dad,aiman,aleeya,aji went 4 breakfast dh..while me n atirah still touch up..wahaha
-then dh siap,turunlah kami ke cafe untuk hidangan pag..
-too much of foodss..i mean delicious food..ontop of our table,there were..nasi lemak,mee goreng,guava juice,pancake,red beans,cake,coffee
-and they also put on a tune..slow tune..mcm nak suruh org tdo balik je..hehe..

10.12 a.m:

-at last,we check out from the hotel..huhu

10.40 a.m:

-peg amik afiq 4 outing..
-since he wants to buy some stuff..so we went to d mall..

12.30:

-then bwk peg mkn at nasi kandar pelita..haha
-i dont eat bcz of the mega breakfast just now..hurmm mcm mane la diaorang ni bole lpr cepat sgt..hak3..

1.00 p.m:

-hantar afiq balik hostel..
-while we teruskan perjalanan balik ke selangor tercinta..haha

4.56p.m:

-we stop at ipoh cz ade kwn ayah nak belanje mkn..
-we meet uncle benny at restoran mee rebus ramli..he said that it was the famous restoran and d food was really yummy2..hehe

about 5.46 p.m:

-kami meneruskan jalan tanpa putus2 lag..hahahaha

so thats all about our trip 2 penang!!haha..short trip with a short memories..wahahahaha..

wak

HARI INI..

2009-02-20T07:12:00.000-08:00

ok today was kinda a bored day 4 me..(bukan ari ni je..hehe) although my day was fully packed with worksssszzzssszzz..haha..but i do feel bored sometime..but it was not bcz of those works..i really enjoy doing a lot of works..i dunno why..say me carzy lil bratz but this is the fact of me..hehe..serious shit that i'm fanatic with works..i'm having fun wit it...n i cant wait to sign in into college 4 my further study...people said that when u stepped there..its like being in a prison..less social life(4 certain course la..) n u need to hav ur brain all the time..i mean u need to carry ur heavy brain every second..well i dont mind..i would love it..no,seriously..learning is fun..(4 me) cz 2 me i really like 2 know everything though i can't..haha..but i will try 2 figure it out..nothing is impossibble what..haha..ok back 2 d story..ermmya,bored day..haha..em ok came back from work..as usual,get ready myself n take my lunch..then main2 ngan my lil bro n sis..n dunno why tiba2 dah ade atas katil..wake up..tgk2 dah pukul 3..haha..how it happened..i dont hav any idea 4 that..at leats dpt rehat ..hehe..then my mom kata.."qla,peg amik adik ko.."i said "owh..emm""what??"amik athirah????" "yela,xpe..jgn takut..drive je slowly..." "haha,ok i'll try"hehe..then get ready then start enjin..so here's come the journey..i was quite nervous when i was driving there..haha..but after all,as my sis says.."fuhh,nasib baik selamat sampai uma.."hahaha..em sharp at 4 ,belum sempat duduk lag,my dad ask us 2 go mydin..beli brg..haha..lagpn esk nak peg pinang..so beli la pape yg patut..balik kul6 terus call bell..ajak lepak..haha..2 je la keje..hehe..but today we went to MPSJ..bell nak sgt peg sana..tengok buah hat..haha..b4 that we but bun n drinks n head there...borak2..gelak2..n sharing our life stories..haha..em then at 7 balik la kami ke uma masing2..so that was the story 4 today..haha..lol!

TOLONG LA FAHAM..

2009-02-18T07:39:00.000-08:00

ok today is 18.2.09..mcm x best je tarikh 2..haha..mmg x best pn..cz ari ni pn my day wasnt that good..it was even worst..haha..emm balik keje mandi n ingatkan nak solat cz dh amik wudu' sekali..then tiba2..my dad called n ajak peg lunch..ok..rambut basah2 mcm mane ek??my dad kata bantai je..dia mmg suka wat surprise mcm 2..ajak last minute..xsuka betul..tap nak wat cm ne..so we head 2 anjung merah..em then mkn..n discuss a few matters..bout my study n my future..haha..he ask me if i want a saga car?i said ape2 pn bole..second hand pn xpe..my mom terus ckp.."NO! IBU X STUJU.."Haha..what ever la mom..then i said saga??mcm bsr je..ok i know its only 1.3 but it is still a big 1 4 me cz i just wanna a micro car..hahaha..i suggest savvy..then dad says dia fikir mcm mane nant..haha..then around 2.30 sampai uma then terus solat..hurmm mls plak nak on9 lepas 2..xde keje plak 2..hehe..so tdo ngan my lil sis,aleeya..tiba2 dgr org azan asar..hurmm dh ptg rupanye..5.15 get up n solat..then called pu3.."nak lepak x?""x bole la,aku ade hal,sori" " ok xpe,jumaat then" then called bell"wat pe?" "lipat kain je" "lepak jom?" "em dtg r uma "siap2 then dtg uma bell..sharp 6 we head to coffee bean..order cuppocino n she ordered iced tea..ok bell sori aku tau ko x suka tempat coffee nie..tap nak wat cm ne..haha..then borak2 sampai la kul 7.15..then balik la kitaorang..hantar bell kat uma then sy pn terus balik uma..sampai je uma..my maid says "qla,ibu suruh msk sayur.." hurmm sayur??nasib baik sayur..haha..then dh msk naik ats siap2..solat maghrib..doa bnyk2..hehe..so that was my day..bored day..n thnx bell..thnx v much..luv u!!

p/s:i miss u fad..

AL-FATIHAH BUAT DIA YG DISAYANGI

2009-02-07T08:24:00.000-08:00

Tanggal 7 feb merupakan tarikh yg paling ku kenangi..pada hari ini la arwah muhd.zulfadry haqim b.dato' norman meninggal dunia kerana sakit yg ditanggungnye sendiri tanpa memberitahuku ..dan entah mengapa pd waktu itu tidak ku sedari walau sedikit perubahan yg ada padanye..dan akhirnye dia pergi meninggalkan keluarganye dan org yg disayanginye..entah mengapa pada hari ini keadaanku berlainan..tidak seperti selalu dan thn2 yg lalu..aku mampu untuk melupakan ape yg berlaku..pd hari ini kisahnya mula menghantui ku..aku berasa tidak selesa..dan aku merasakan kesedihan yg bertalu-talu..semua kata-katanye mula berngiang-ngiang dan memorinye silih berganti..kemudian seperti biasa kak zira akn menelefon ku untk menjemput ke ke kenduri tahlil..tap pd hari ini aku membuat keputusan untuk tidak pergi..dan terus mengurung diri di dlm rumah..dan aku sentiasa teringat setiap kali blk minggu pd hari jumaat dia akn msgku."dah sampai uma?" "oh,ok xpe,nant sy msg blk,awk rest dulu ok.."msg yg sama akn dihantarnye setiap hari jumaat(blk minggu) namun harusku terima hakikat yg aku tidak mungkin bole melaluinye lag..seperti yg pernah dia lakukan..arwah merupakan seorang yg sngat baik..dia seorang yg amat berbeza..he's very unique and cool..namun demikian,aku bersyukur kerana dikurniakn seorang yg sgt baik hat untuk menemani ku dan berkongsi dgn ku..terima kasih awk..dan aku tidak tahu apa yg harusku lakukan selain berdoa kepada-Nya memohon petunjuk dan jln yg terbaik bg ku..aku tidak pernah lupa untuk menghadiahkan arwah doa dan fatihah agar roh nya sentiasa dlm golongan org yg beriman..fad,terima kasih..sekarang sy mula memahami setiap nasihat awk n i've got my answer..thnx..thnx v v v much..

p/s:this txt was written in green cz he love green too much which i dun really like tap "4 u i will"..fad,remember that phrase??thnx.. :>

GONE FOR A MOMENT VS GONE FOREVER

2009-02-06T08:08:00.000-08:00

HOW WOULD U FEEL WHEN U LOST SOMEONE..LAG2 YANG ANDA SAYANGI..??MUST BE SOOOOOO SAD..MOURNING DAY AND NITE..HAHAHA
ok dont get me wrong k..i just wanna share wit u something..sometimes we are soo happy wit them that we have to let them go someday somehow..and when the day come and u'll start asking.."why??"and some of u might say that why should it happen..its useless and not logic..meaning that we must not love anyone..??nope..that is not what i meant..i mean..yes,kite dah lama sangat hidup dgn dia..n the worst part is we love them sooo much..at first we love them sooo sooo sooo much..n day by day..where we all we reach one stage where each of us cant live without each other..and that is the last stage that we need to prepare ourselves..90% prepared or else we could just be in trouble..u love him/her soo much that u could die 4 him/her..u love him/her soo much that u could nvr except what ever the fact is..come on..this is life..u do know all this rite..i'm sure that all of u must must be pretty sure of it..we cant deby that they are the loved ones and some of u will go crazy after they lost them and thats it..ur life is finished..we need to go through all this bcz this is life..the one who live will deffinitely die..tak kisah la sama ada mereka ini mati dlm mimpi anda atau mati untuk selamanya..tha is the only different..either he/she is gone for a moment or gone forever..we dont know that..just be prepared..kalau la seseorang 2 hilang untuk sementara dan dtg kembali kemudian hari..then it wouldnt be any problem 4 u as u just have to pray hard and live life to the max till u meet him/her..tap mcm mane plak kalo seseorang 2 pergi untuk selamanye??its gonna end half of ur life rite??yes..it is confirm..memang mudah untuk mencari pengganti untuk menggantikan yg sudah pergi tap u must remember that there is a a lot of difference antara menggantikan dan menempatkan seseorang dlm diri dan hati..i'm not simply making words here ok..it is a fact!!sometimes we just dun know when is he'her going..either forever or for a moment but sometimes we could know..the worst part is when u dun even realize it n it happened in just a second.."tupp"just like that..damn..sape yg mengalaminye begini mest merupakan seorang yg sgt tabah n kuat..kdg2 kite mesti tertanye kenape mesti ada yg meninggalkan..??u should know that life is once but to live with the given life is a plenty of them..we cant just live in one way..so that is why the almighty god wants us to know that there is many ways in ur life..we will lose someone one day but there will alwiz be someone who will wait and come to u one day later..the only thing is anda yg menentukan sama ada sekadar pengganti atau penetapan yg baru..its ur life.. :)

p/s:fad..thnx 4 d inspiration..

KERJAYA SEMENTARA..

2009-02-06T07:40:00.000-08:00

Its been a month since i starts my carrier..haha..temporary carrier..for those who don't know,i'm currently workin wit kids..hehe..yeah,i'm a kindergarten teacher..huhu..i know most of u guys would say.."kids??wow,bestnye.."haha..yes i would say they are just being adorable and i won't deny that workin wit them are soooo sooooo much enjoyable ..it's undescribable!great..awesome.. and stuff..but one word i could say is TOUGH..hehe..although i'm kinda get use to kids as i'm the one who raised up aiman and aleeya(my lil bro n sis) but when the moment i get into there..the whole situation are just different..i thought it would be pretty easier for me but i were wrong..totally wrong..i forgot that different humas have different characters and method to handle..haha..the first two weeks were kinda tough ..i mean a lil bit tough as i'm killing two birds wit one stone..haha..i need to suits myself wit the condition n stuff and i also need to get to know those kids..haha..but it was soooo much of joys n funs..i really love kidss..hahaha..they are cute and sooo adorable..hehe...fad,do u remeber bout the kid stuff??kalau awk ade lag..mest lag best..i really miss u..if only u could know that i'd cried 4 u every nite n day..fad,do u remeber bout d promise???i'm sorry..really sorry ..i should know it earlier..yeah,i'm dumb ok i know that..i miss u..hurmmm ..awk tau tak budak2 2 kan selalu buli saya..haha..em yes..they are soooo cute n brave that they could bully me just like that..hehe..i had nevr get angry wit them that the priciple,ms veelo called me n remind me that this is a school and not a "daycare" or taska n stuff..she said that :"aqilah,u must scold them if they did anything wrong,be firm a bit"i know that but i just couldnt train myself 4 that..i mean if i were 2 do that then i'll need to practice it..heheas time passed..i finally get use to it..now i'm kinda know d situation and not blur and there's a progression woit those kiddos..haha..some of the teachers said that i should just take d child course and open my own kindergarten..haha..they said that i'm soooo suitable wit those kidss.haha..i know but sometime we must sacrifice our interest to learn a new one..(kan fad kan??)hehe..so i guess that's all about my temporary carrier..hehe..c ya!

p/s:fad,u know...

WHENEVER..

2009-01-26T07:57:00.000-08:00

whenever there is a difficulty,
whenever there is a challenge,
and that is a life..

Whenever there is a path,
whenever there is a way,
and that is a believe..

Whenever there is a hope,
whenever there is a desire,
and that is a journey..

whenever there is a promise,
whenever there is a mistakes,
and that is a love..

1HOURS AND 30 MINUTES MEMORIES

2009-01-24T05:49:00.000-08:00

Today agak boring..(actually moody)hehe..dunno why la..since last week i've got imbalance hormone..hurmm..must check back with mr.pituitary gland..(mom,is that rite??haha dah lupa la..)and the worst part is i'm craving like hell..one after another..4two weeks i crave 4 nasi mamak..then lepas 2 nak mkn pancake..haha..then ari2..ade je air nak minum..jus la..hot water la..nasib baik air senang nak buat..haha..so today lepas dah penat buat "homework"(hehe)(actually update my business) txt dekat bell and puteri..ajak lepak..xtau nak peg mane..haha..gelak2 (sambil jln) then we all dcide nak mkn kat secret recipe..so sambil gelak jln peg sana..haha..em sampai sana gelak lag..haha..pape ntah ..tap itulah kitaorang yang sebenarnye..hehe..then masing2 discuss nak mkn ape..i just ordered 2 slices of brownies walnut and cafe latte..bell order cheese cake yg dia dah lame mengidam n puteri pn sama setelah penat dipujuk..hehe..mkn and gelak..haha..tiba2..hujan lebat gle..guess what??kitaorang actually risau 2 perkara..1)nak balik mcm mane??2) nant kek yg nak bwk balik basah(hehe)..and teka ape yg kiteorg buat..each one of us kol our fwen 2 get a lift..haha..lawak gle..sorila..terpaksa susahkan korang2..hehe..and lag best hujan semakin lebat dan lebat dan sangatlah lebat sampaila jam menunjukkan pukul 6.55 ptg..all the workers had their eyes on us..sori ye akak n abang..terpaksa menumpang walaupun dah bayar bill..haha..and at the same time we keep making fon calls 4 a lift..and the results turned zero when we received various reasonssss..hehe..xpe guys,fhm2..lag2 musim cut..hehe..so tepat pukul 7 kami bersepakat untuk meredah hujan lebat..haha..tap bila kuar tengok dah x hujan sgt..haha,apela..so kami meneruskan journey yg boleh dikatakan best..hehe..on the way balik..gelak la..haha..so that is all about the 1 hour and 30 minutes event(memories)..hehe..thnx bell and pu3..c ya!

THE FLAVOUR OF LIFE 2

2009-01-23T07:48:00.000-08:00

when u say thank you..
for some reason it hurts..
like a magic spell that doesn't
get undone even after the goodbye..
a hint of bitterness..
the flavour of life..

stuck midpoint between friends and lovers..
like an unriped fruit dreaming about the day of harvest..
bcz of being unable to just move one more step forward..
what's causing this frustration..?

sweet talk and tasteless conversations..
it sparks no interest in me..
even when things do not go the way u want..
it doesn't mean that u've thrown ur life away..

when asked what's wrong?
i answer ' nothing'..
the smile that dissappear after goodbye..
its unlike me..

the more i wish to believe in u..
for some reason it hurts even more..
' i like u a lot' instead of ' i luv u' sounds more like u..
the flavour of life..

the period when u suddenly remember the scent of someone
u had almost forgotten..
i want to be able to be open and honestly cherish the white purity
of the falling snow more..
a future tender and warmer than a diamond
i want to grasp it
in this limited time we have
i want to spent it with u..

JALAN-JALAN..

2008-12-30T07:37:00.000-08:00

hey there..sori lame tak update this blog..bz with some stuff..haha..anyway..on 25th of dec ..my family n i went 4 one day vacation..haha..athirah(my sis)bising gle asking my dad peg sungkai,perak..since she is my dad's gurllzz..so my dad pun ckp" ok esk kite peg.."em ape lag..suka la yang lain..as 4 me..i just pack ape yg patut n tlg my mom prepare foods 4 tomorrow..haha..so we went there..sume pun ikut..termasukla my maid..eh sori..our maid..hehe..sampai je kat sana..pak guard 2 ckp tempat dah penuh..kena lalu sebelah sana..em peg awal pag pun tempat dah penuh..dasyat2..hak3..so my dad pun buat 360 u-turn n in 10 mins we reached there..sampai kat sana..aiman n aleeya terus xcited.."nak swim..nak swim..jom la swim.."ramai gle orang dtg..n dad cepat2 beli tiket n ask us peg dulu..tempat dia besar gle..mcm2 ade ..hotspring n pool..tap malangnye..hujan turun dengan tiba2..pelik kan..n i terus doa..cz orang kata kalo hujan turun ngan tiba2..doa mustajab..hehe..em ok back 2 d story..tempat dia is un describable..best gle..nasib baik best tra..kalo x..kena ko..hehe..em then the wet session pun bermula..aleeya n aiman was having fun n joys 4 bout 5 hours..aiman sampai biru muka n badan dia..dahla x breakfast..cz xcited sangat..hak3..em then lepas 2 kitaorang peg hot spring dia..ade mcm2 jenis..ade yg 4 treatment ,4 family n stuff..with different temperature..i tried the one with 50-60 degrees..at first memang panas gle..then ok dah la..
best..it was so relaxing..that some of the people fall asleep..heheem at 3.30 we pack back..singgah kat surau 2 perform our prayers..n mkn time..mknan sume habis..hehe..then we went back..sume pun dah penat n sume pn tdo..xcept me..dunno why..haha..em then we dad singgah kat seremban untuk mkn..then we all yg perut kosong pun mkn..aiman n aleeya tdo dlm kereta..cian..penat sgt kot..hehe..so thats all bout the "jalan-jalan" story..jumpa lag!!

LOVE IS....

2008-12-22T06:47:00.000-08:00

love is:
-When u feel lonely without the one that u hate the most.
-When u don't realize that u're actually acting ackward.
-When u're supper happy when u are with him/her.
-When u hurt him/her the most.
-when u can't even forget him/her even if u hav tried millions times
-When u're willing to let him/her go away with the fact that u love him/her so much.
-When u can except him/her in every aspects.
-When u believe that he/she is ur destiny someday..somehow.
-when u 're happy to c him/her happy and vise versa.
-when u don't find something in someone else but u see everything in him/her.
-when u care for him/her no matter what happens.
-When u're willing to lead him/her to success.
-When u find there's a lot of confusion occurs between u both.
-When u don't realize that u're actually can't live without him/her.
-When u don't give up on her/him even a second.
-When u're willing to tell him/her the truth although its kinda hard n the worst part is it hurts a lot.
-When he/she became the most important thing to u..
-

THE FLAVOUR OF LIFE

2008-12-18T07:54:00.001-08:00

i wonder what are or maybe is my flavour of life..do u ever think of it..all the memories that we had sice childhood till now,what do u think the flavour would be??after an advance research..i finally got an idea of it..i would say my flavour of life are sweet and sour..and a normal person would have that as their flvour of life and if one does no t have it ..it would be a though life for them..one should hav a sweet taste of their life to cherish them up and upgrade their confidence level in their upcoming life..would it be tougher or vise versa..one should also had sour time for them to be alert about themselves..for them to know at which stage are they now..are they nearer to their vision or its getting far away..a little bit of a sour taste would cause u to collapse in a second ..but it promise u a better way of life if u try harder to get up..so u see..they are the flavour of our life..sometimes we lose for what we desire and most of the time we're in desperate state that makes our little time being ruin.. but as long as u can see the right path..u'll never backdown..sometimes we just don't realize for what we have done and sometimes we just don't know for what we must done.. so what's ur flavour of life??:)

THE TRIP WITH CUZIE'S

2008-12-05T08:09:00.000-08:00

hey there ..the last two days my sis n i went to watch twilight with our cousins at mid valley..the movie was great!awesome great!!awesome!hehe..well edward n his family are so adorable..hehe..we had a very great time there..as it been quite a long time i didn't went 4 movies n stuff cz of the pre-future war:SPM..life disaster..hehe..the best part was when we are deciding the place to fill in the hungry stomach..hehe..there were sooooo many people that w e can't even step into any restaurant..and we had to make a few rounds ..finally, we ate at the restaurant that we had never been before..the food was so yummy!!so the day of the trip.hehe.. :)

the mysterious WHY

2008-11-28T08:28:00.000-08:00

hmm hye buddy..i'm writting this cz i dun get to go to sleep..i planned to dream of my boy but now i can't sleep without knowing why..so i went to washed my face and take out my laptop..at the same time i'm thinking 4 d answer or maybe answers..huh..dahla esok kna bgn pag..nak peg kl jln2 tenagkan fikiran..haha..em still thinking what to do bsides blogging..know what???i never feel this way..i meant dah lame dah tak rase mcm nie..the best part is i hate to feel like this..it hurts a lot..hurmmm..kalau la awak ader Fad..mesti sume ni takkan terjadi..really miss u..aaaarrrggh..(pls don't ask who is Fad)how do u feel when someone beside u when missing leaving empty signs..where would u find him or her..rite lets not talk about it..oh yeah today i dunno why all the "WHY"seems to be the top question..hurmm today the refrigerator,tv,car and others stuff broke down..and my dad quickly get a new one 4 each of them except 4 the car..hehe..he finally bought
a LCD tv..and that makes us great..and u do know that when one is being changed,mostly everything are to be change..so my mom speaks this out.."there's a lot more to be changed:sofa,tables,chairs and rooms.."everyone did a very good turning towards her and a crowd lough is heard..haha..well this is my house attitude..lol..and also today both my younger sis and bro did a very good job..dunno why in a big sudden they took a cloth and wet it and wipe all over the house..hurmmm..so u c today which is friday seems to turn into the WHY DAY..HAK3

chemistry memories.

2008-11-27T22:11:00.000-08:00

This is when the last class of our chemistry class before the spm..huhu..we took a few pic to be kept as memories..pn kwan,the greatest teacher ever was the one who really pushed us to strike for the war..thnx teacher..hmm well his haziq znd his a nice friend ..

a whole new life..

2008-11-27T20:34:00.000-08:00

Today i just started a whole new life..yeah a new life..feel like just woke up from a death..hehe..what i meant is i just end my pre-war..that is SPM..feel really great!!once we finished our last paper that is EST we were all shouting like hell..and continue with the gathering while i'm in a rush so i go back early..there's an emergency actually..sadly,my plan doesn't really happened..i decided to meet my special 'friend'but things turn out wrongly..its being mutated..hehe..well i went back and tried to text him and there's no response..maybe he's running out of credits..so never mind..and here goes my new life..rite g2g..will be updated soon..c ya!!