Thursday, April 28, 2011

UNTUK KAU.

mungkin kah tajuk ku di atas kasar bahasanya?
mungkin juga ada yang terasa dek membacanya?
mungkin kah juga ku merasa kepahitan menulisnya?
coretan ku hanya la sekadar pesanan.
buat diriku dan rakan taulan.
cerita ku dahulukan.
kisahnya ku pendekkan.
kesimpulan aku hulurkan.
semoga kau tahu apa yang ku mahukan.
secebis hati kau guris.
segala cacian ku telan.
segala maki aku makan.
pedih, pahit aku rasakan.
tatkala kau menyimpan.
segala yang telah kau mulakan.
tapi kau tinggalkan pengakhiran.
tergantung dek awan.
berkibar tanpa tujuan.
kemanakah pengakhiran?
sentiasa aku nantikan.
berilah aku jawapan.
wahai insan yang pernah menjadi teman.
kau la sahabat handai.
kau la rakan yang bijak pandai.
kau la tempat ku curah segala duka dan lara.
segala gelak dan tawa.
namun harus diingatkan.
detik tawa detik manis
tidak lah berpanjangan.
mungkin kah ini ujian?
atau hukuman?
salah apakah?
dosa manakah?
aku serahkan pada tuhan.
akan tetapi kau,
ya, engkau.
engkau yang menyimpan segala lukisan.
lukisan di akhir kisah ini.
akan tetapi kau hilang.
membawa diri.
bukan ini yang di pinta.
seksa terasa amat lah tidak wajar.
kau ku cari.
hingga kaki mencecah duri.
namun bayangmu sentiasa dikaburi.
haruskah aku terus berdiri menanti?
sedarlah wahai kau insan yang lari,
kita pasti berjumpa suatu hari nanti,
di medan keadilan,
bukan semua yang ku pinta.
cuma secebis kata.
penjelasan dan kemaafan.
aku masih tegak berdiri.
di sini.
menanti.


Sunday, April 24, 2011

SILENT SCREAM

you know sometimes silent scream won't work out anything. Its okay to silence urself but when it comes to the heart matters, silent won't just be the solution. Running away from everything is coward. Its not that u're moving on ur life. Moving on ur life means that u're still observing ur past in a way that u're walking forward. by keeping urself silence and running away will just make u hurt ur surroundings and so do ur past. perhaps interrupting ur new life. i just hope u know. God bless.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

CULUELESS

Aha. okay saje je nak buat tajuk post mcm tu. Actually nak ckp 'clueless'. haha. Okay nothing much. Just tak faham kenapa kena berkasar bila kita bole buat cara elok? Errr. simple. i got the answer. for the mistake that happened, the WISE one will admit it and learn, the INSECURE will deny it, the FOOLISH will repeat it, and the GODLY forgive. :)



p/s: dont play harsh k. cz once i'm in. too bad.

I LOVE YOU


Baby, i just wanna thanked you so much for being with me. Thank you so much for being such an understanding person during my hard time. Thank you for the ears and thanks for the shoulders. I love you so muchie muchie my lil munchkin! you'll be paid for that k :D i love you a lot k baby.

Sunday, April 17, 2011

H.M.A.S


Last saturday was our day :) kan b kan? hehe. nothing much cz went to Damai beach resort, kuching. with some other frens too. our activities are so called " sambil menyelam minum air". okay, sape yg tak faham, we did two different things at a time. the beach was so wonderful and so do the swimming pool. hee. :D really had a great time with all the members. :) and i love you so much!

KU MAHU KAU TAHU



hey baby. i miss you little heart. Those days we had a great moments and times. but now we're just too busy with our days. Sorry won't redeem it. But in anyway it will be, i believed there will be a time for us. right baby? :) I have faith for it baby. Anyway baby, i just wanna appologize to you for keep calling you so many times. I know you dislike the attitude but i'm so in need to get to you. I'm sorry baby. Really i am. I just want you to know i didn't mean to. And if it is not bcz of something that really matters, then i wont baby. I really wont. Sorry baby/ my bad. I just want you to know that i really miss you and i wanna have more time talking to you cz i just have plenty of pages to be storied to you. Take care baby. I'm kinda sick and i am so tired. XoXo. Love you a lot sweetheart!

p/s: baby, i risaukan u. u're sick dah lama dah, even it is just the mouth part. hurm.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Never Put Hopes.


I want to have it so badly for my last birthday present. But too bad, ain't getting any. It may look simple to you guys but i'm falling for it so much. Too many things to be consider. Hey little watch, can you please wait till i go and get you. Oh miracle, please happen!!