YOU

everybody is after me..but the only one i want is YOU.yes, i want YOU!!

THINGS TO BE DONE IN TWO WEEKS TIME.

since i'm having a term break for two weeks so i guess i'll be having a few hours just for myself as i've spent most of it for others..hehe..well i just hope that everything is smoothly done..few things to be done within this two weeks..

• Buy a new phone since the one i'm using going to be dead soon.haha..sorry didnt mean to.i'd takecare of u but it seems that u're no longer belong to me..sorry lil phone..rest in peace ok..haha..the process would be late as my dad dont really agree to buy for me..as he said"no,not at the moment.i'm v busy" yes dad.."busy"..i dont mind pun cz u're answer is expected..as usual..haha..but to buy a new one is a must! shall discuss wit mom..
• prepare something to get side income.i plan to teach people mengaji or mayb tuition..so kpd budak2 yang memerlukan bantuan perkhidmatan pembelajaran sahaja dan bukan pengajaran silalah ke kaunter saya..hehe..
• to get my assignment done.this one is a tough one cz for this job ..we need to do animation project..yes,kalo suruh buat kartun then i dont mind..but what i need to do is to transform a few samples of virus into an animation..hurm need to install the software n stuff..to be done!!-full of craps-
• to do an advance study.so that when the time comess it would be a revision for me..bijak tak saya??haha..sangat vain..hehe..as we all know pre-U is the toughest process for the nxt one..u shall struggle so that u'll be easy when u're in U later..bak kata "semua orang" xtau la betul ke tak..haha..so every night study..but for maths will hav to think first..hahaha..yang penting bio n chem i shall get it done!!
• to settle everything that need to be settle.(private and confidential)
• to help my mom as much as i can.."dear mom,i can see the pain in ur eyes..but stay cool..i'll try my best ok.." "chill..chill" hehe..n she did ask me to create a wishing card for her student..5 setia..it was my ex-clas..sangat "rock" ..haha."will do mom :) "
• to wash my car everyday..haha..yes.. setiap hari..ini kerana mereka2 telah mengotorkan kreta sayang saya..:( sangat kesian.. :( takpe2 cik kereta lepas nie saya cantik2 kan awak ok..setiap hari.. :)
• to get myself motivated enough..i need to find all the strength back..i need to find all the confidence i had before..i need to find all the patience i had before for the unexpected contingency.".dear god..return me my strenght that i had before..dear god,alwiz keep me in ur lane..save me from everything that could harm me."

• last but not least is to spent more time wit u..yes, u my dear..my someone..n my everything..will try my best ok.. :)

so..pls pray that i can get all the stuff done within this two weeks..thank you for all ur support..whatever it is i'll try my best to strive for the perfection..yeah..insyaAllah..i believe that HE knows the best for my life..

today would be yesterday and tomorrow will be today.

today..we stand up here..
leaving the life to the maximum..
tomorrow..we may need to secure..
the right choice of the column..

today..we endeavour in finding something..
grabbing all the possible chance we could ever had..
tomorrow..we may need to search anything..
just to make us feel glad..

today..we run for the truth..
leaving all the others behind or away..
tomorrow..we may need to walk in between..
aiming from being astray..

today..we're fed with desires..
and without any contradiction ..we act towards it..
tomorrow..we may need to keep some..
to strive for the perfection of others..

YA ALLAH

Ya Allah Ya tuhanku..
hambamu merindukan..
rahmat kasih sayang-Mu..
dan jua keredhaan-Mu..
meskipun ku ulangi..
dosa noda yang menjanjikan..
azab neraka..
namun ku sedari..
keampunan -Mu tidak bertepi..
ku akui diri ini hamba yang mungkir pada janji-janji..
jadikanlah taubat ini yang sejati..
pada-Mu ilahi..
ya Allah..
ampunkanlah dosa2 ku..
Ya Allah..
redha kan lah kehidupanku..
ya Allah..
berikanlah kekuatan dan ketabahan yang pernah Kau berikan padaku..
agar aku sentiasa berada pada jalan -Mu ..

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The only person who can make women cries..
day and night..
seeking for the true love..
is him.

The only person who can make women sigh..
throughout all the days..
hoping for the best..
is him.

The only person who can grab everything..
but impossible to give something..
to the seekers..
is him.

The only person who can create anything..
but impossible to explain something..
even for a single question..
makes the people wonder why..
is him.

The only person who have everything..
but fail to give something..
is also him.

The person who works each and every day..
trying to performing his best..
for the sake of life or maybe lifessss..
is also him.

Its undescribable..its unpredictable..
the actions n all the scenes..
but i'll constantly pray..
to the Almighty..
may u have the wonderful thinking..
to see the truth..
to observe the circles..
to determine the way or maybe ways..
to strive for the perfection..
to run through the history or maybe histories..
to walk through the right ones..
to hold the faith..
and to stand with the unconditional love..
for us..for us..and only us..
i'll pray for the day..
will alwiz..n alwiz..

*happy father's day*

U ARE THE REASON WHY PEOPLE THINK I'M UNGRATEFUL A.K.A FIRST ABUSEMENT.

Its alwiz been UR FAULT..yes YOU!! you begin the game n u drag us all there.You drag us to go through the risk of urs..which we never ask for it..WE NEVER ASK FOR IT!!!! I DONT KNOW FOR WHAT REASON THAT U HAVE TO PICK A LIFE LIKE THIS..i totally dont mind BUT YOU FORCE US TO INVOLVE TOO..WTH????? n for the first time u did ur first abusement n i really thanked for that..cz now people would say that i'm grateful enough since all this while i was not(mengikut kata2 mereka).So thank you..millions of thank you!! go ahead wit what u're doin but for all u know i'm praying hard for the best of us.i pray that anda akan dijumpakan ke jalan yang benar..come back..for her n the others...

THE SCARY NIGHTMARE

i had never gone through any nightmare..yes..this a fact of my life..one thing that i alwiz appreciate..thanked to god.. that i've been sleep well evry night..alhamdulillah..n i alwiz wonder the feelings of heaving a bad dream or so called nightmare..how's the feeling an d stuff..untill i get my whole new life..yeah..'matrics life.' one night..actually bukan mlm pun..mase 2 tertido waktu maghrib for like one hour je..sebab selalu sgt fikir psl bad dream yg org lain lalui..on that day itself..i had mine..its undescribable..seriously..memang teruk gile mimpi 2..when i woke up..i was kinda stunned to recall evrything back..but seriously..i pray that i wont go through it again..pls..hurmm lame jugak la duduk berfikir mengimbas kembali mimpi buruk 2..terlalu buruk sampai x nampak apa2..haih..the worst part is evrytime i tried to recall it..it makes me feel scary gile2..takut gle..sampai fobia nk tengok katil n fobia nak tdo..whenever i lay down on the bed..i'll feel like sitting on d scary machine that give u all the shock n fierce..tak kelakar ok..believe it or not but i cried 4 like a few times la..sebab terlalu takut..sgt2 takut..n now evry nite will b the moment that i cant face through walaupun terpaksa..bila mlm je parkinson akan dtg menyerang..haha..but anyway thanks to YOU who tried to make me feel relieved..u'd help me a lot..thank you v much..n everyday i pray hard that evrything will be fine.. :(